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<rss xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0"><channel xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom"><title>~*Revue_Blanche*~</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/</link><atom:link xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" rel="self" href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/feed/rss2/posts/"/><description>"A work of art has no importance whatever to society. It is only important to the individual."</description><language>en-EU</language><generator>MokoFeed</generator><ttl>10</ttl><image><title>~*Revue_Blanche*~</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/</link><url>http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/00/f3691f6b01a6c775708ed1ad59bdda_160x200.jpg</url></image><item><title>queer</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/11/01/queer-7283574/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-11-01:/2009/11/01/queer-7283574/</guid><pubDate>Sun, 01 Nov 2009 03:10:43 +0100</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*Chaadaev (1794-1856) &lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Nobleman, intellectual, dandy. Ladies crowded around him, but “Flighty Venus” Chaadaev, as Pushkin called him, was indifferent to women. His sex life was mystery. I’ll try to unveil the mystery of the chastity of “Russian Socrates” in this essay, at least slightly.&lt;br&gt;
In annals of St Petersburg, we can meet the name “Demuot’s Inn”. It was a hotel, one of the oldest (built in the 1770s) and most expensive (a room cost 150 gold rubles a month).  The hotel’s name came from its first owner Philip-Jacob Demuot from Strasburg.  When Alexander Pushkin used stayed in the hotel, he took Room 10. There was a funny story. Young Gogol, who had come to St Petersburg, plucked up courage to visit Pushkin at Demuot’s. Now, Gogol asked the footman whether Pushkin was in. The footman said yes, his master was in, but sleeping. “Your master worked last night long?” Gogol ventured to suppose. “Yes, he did. Played cards last night long,” the answer was. One of the tenants of Demuot’s Inn was Pyotr Chaadaev. He occupied Room 54 for six years.&lt;br&gt;
Chaadaev, author of Philosophical Letters was a lonely and proud figure staying separately in the history of Russian ideas. Chaadaev wrote in French, believing that nobody in Europe would read in Russian--in Europe as well as in Russian well-educated society--but the first Letter’s Russian translation was published first, and it evoked such a tempest that it was not fit to talk of this work by Chaadaev till the revolution of 1905. The Letters were eight, and all of them were published in Russia only in 1989. Author began working on the first Letter in 1828, and its Russian translation appeared in 1836 in the Moscow magazine Telescope. As a result, the magazine’s editor was exiled to the Far North of Russia, and Chaadaev was declared a madman.  In the Letters author revealed his historic and philosophic views.  A main characteristic of historic fate of Russia he reckoned the “drab and gloomy existence, without strength and energy, which is enlivened with nothing but atrocities, softened with nothing but slavery. No captivating reminiscence, no graceful images in the people’s memory; no mighty teachings in the people’s legend[…] We live only in the present, in the present’s tightest limits, without the past, without the future, among deadly stagnation[…]” He believed that Russia had lagged behind Western countries and had contributed nothing to the world's progress. He therefore concluded that Russia must start de novo. It must be said that the strikingly uncomplimentary views found its echo in the book Empire of the Czar: A Journey Through Eternal Russia by Marquis de Custine (1790–1857) written later, in 1839.&lt;br&gt;
Resonance in society was enormous. Students of Moscow University came to the president of Censorship Committee Count Stroganoff and said that they were ready for standing up in arms for “Russia, insulted by Chaadaev”. Gendarme General Perfilyev reported to his chief Benkendorff about the general indignation, caused by Chaadaev’s article.  Minister of Education Uovarov gave a proper paper to Nicolas I, and the Tsar put down the resolution, which declared the article a “daring nonsense, worthy of an insane man”. The magazine Telescope was shut down. After Chaadaev was officially declared insane, he had to live a life of a hermit in his house in Basmannaya Street, where the doctor visited him regularly and every month the doctor gave an account to the Tsar about Chaadaev’s health.&lt;br&gt;
In this atmosphere, Chaadaev wrote his new article The Vindication of a Madman (1837). In this brilliant but uncompleted work he maintained that Russia must follow her inner lines of development if she was to be true to her historical mission. The Slavophiles at first mistook Chaadaev for one of them, but later, on realizing their mistake, bitterly denounced and disclaimed him. Chaadaev really fought Slavophilism all of his life. He wrote: “I’ve not learnt to love my homeland with my eyes closed, head bent, lips sealed. I find an individual may be of use to his native country only if he can see it clearly. I think the time of infatuations has passed […]”&lt;br&gt;
Poet Alexander Pushkin wrote to Chaadaev till his own death in 1837. He dedicated to Chaadaev three poems. Chaadaev's personality, Pushkin charactered  in the famous poem To Portrait of Chaadaev: &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;"By supreme will of Heaven&lt;br&gt;
he was born to serve to Tsar.&lt;br&gt;
In Rome, he would be Brute. In Athens--Pericles.&lt;br&gt;
And now, he is an army officer." &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;And there is such a message of Pushkin to Chaadaev: &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;"Oh when on earth, my friend, our parting comes to an end?&lt;br&gt;
When will we conjoin words of love and our hands?&lt;br&gt;
When will I hear your warm welcome?&lt;br&gt;
How I'll hug you!.." &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The reader may think whatever of this last poem, but in fact there are nothing in the poem but some conventional rhetoric turns of speech, usual for educated people of those times.&lt;br&gt;
It was matter of course that Chaadaev impressed Pushkin (who was five years younger) as he impressed his all contemporaries.  Born at Moscow, our hero and his brother became orphaned when aged three and five. The children inherited a 1, 000, 000 estate (in Russian gold rubles, in late 18th century).  Aunt Princess Anna and her brother Prince Dmitry Shcherbatov raised young Pyotr. The boy was an uncommonly beautiful, remarkably educated, spoilt and willful child. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data6.blog.de/media/432/4062432_a78f15008b_m.jpg" alt="8doc_1"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The cloudless childhood in the big house. Nannies, governeurs, tutors. In summer--countryside. In winter--visits to the innumerable noble relatives. In boyhood--lectures in Moscow University. Having wit, beautiful appearance, education, he was nice to deal with him. Perfect manners, brilliant French, reputation of the best dancer of the town. He was an army officer, served in the Napoleonic Wars, entered Paris with Russian Army. “Prince Fortune”, he should be a great success among women, and they crowded around him indeed encircling him wherever he came in society. But this was limited by a vivid flirtation only, and no natural consequences. We recognize Chaadaev in Chapter 1 of Pushkin’s Onegin, in which author calls the main character “Flighty Venus”.  Onegin’s boudoir is copy of Chaadaev’s. Our hero was acknowledged and renowned dandy of his time. His entire life, our philosopher was a man of fashion; he needed society; he loved to mingle and shine. All was at his service, and if he refused something then he did not want it indeed.&lt;br&gt;
The climax of friendship of Chaadaev and Pushkin was the countless talks at Demuot’s Inn, where Chaadaev, being aide-de-camp of Commander of the Guards Unite, lived in bel-etage. Women loved Pushkin, and most probably he asked his elder friend about that. Judging by the text of Onegin, the answer was that Chaadaev’s “feelings have cooled too early”, that beauties interested him not long, and most probably the young poet was quite satisfied with the answer.&lt;br&gt;
Now, clouds hiding the sun. The Emperor said that Pushkin flooded the Empire with his revolting poems, and the poet well might be exiled to the north, but thanks to his friends all the matter came to the well-known pleasure journey to the south. Afterwards, Chaadaev more than once emphasized that it was he who put in a word in behalf of the poet, at the supreme spheres. While Pushkin was travelling, Chaadaev reached the new promotion in his military and court career, but suddenly, in 1821, he left service. He entered the secret society of Decembrists, but he did not find any satisfaction to his needs there, and in 1823 he set forth for traveling through Europe--Britain, France, Germany, Switzerland, Italy.&lt;br&gt;
In Germany, he met the philosopher Schelling and representatives of different religious streams, familiarizing himself with Catholic socialism, learning much new of cultures of European people.&lt;br&gt;
After wandering abroad, he returned home, domiciled in Moscow (in Basmannaya Street), becoming a permanent member of the English Club. Neither the story of publishing the Philosophic Letter nor his reputation of a madman changed his life too much.  He kept on living in Basmannaya Street and Tverskaya Street (where the English Club was), meeting as usual the Emperor at high society balls, when the Emperor visited Moscow. As one of his contemporaries said, “Chaadaev spent the rest of his social life standing at a pillar in ball-halls and contemplating.” In 1856, Chaadaev died in peace. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data6.blog.de/media/433/4062433_b64bb6cf46_m.jpg" alt="8doc_3"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Apart from the ill-starred Letters, he published nothing. In this sense, we may compare him with Socrates, who left no one line of his works, and who is known by words of his pupils Xenophon and Plato (with the latter promoting his own ideas under the guise of Socrates’). Chaadaev had his own “Xenophon”--Mikhail Zhikharev, historically notable with nothing but the friendship with Pyotr Chaadaev. Mikhail was 18, Pyotr was 44, when they met. Judging by the biography written by Zhikharev, Chaadaev diminished his true age by two or three years, talking with his young friend, but his birthday was known to the biographer--May 27. We may be grateful to Zhikharev (who remained unmarried) and be glad for Chaadaev for the fact that his “sad sunset” was lit by the “parting smile of love”.&lt;br&gt;
The Biography of Chaadaev written by Mikhail Zhikharev in the 1860s was published entirely only 120 years later. Some extracts of the book could explain what seemed incomprehensible to contemporaries of the great man.&lt;br&gt;
“Chaadaev had a connection and innumerable female friends, but nobody ever heard he was a lover of any of the woman[…] He himself talked on the subject evasively, never defying anything, never refuting anything, letting imply of much, leaving freedom for any guess. Then I ventured to ask plainly the question of a very personal sort: ‘Is it true that you never in your life took a woman? If yes, then what was a reason?  Was it out of chastity or in virtue of other reason?’ The answer ensued immediately: ‘You’ll know when I die.’  Eight years have passed after his death, but I’ve learnt of nothing he promised. Eventually, last year, one witness, trustworthy and only among the living, whose name I am not entitled to say, said that Chaadaev never,  neither at his young age nor being mature, felt like coupling, that he was made like this by nature… Wishing to go deep into the subject, I questioned the witness more, but I did not get more information, and now I don’t dare claiming anything--however, from some hints and rumor, quite unfounded, I could permit myself some guesses.”&lt;br&gt;
We permit ourselves to make doubt to the incredible supposition that living side by side with Pyotr for 17 years Mikhail suspected and guessed of nothing, at the same time being on intimate terms with the man, who was 25 years older. The following excerpt, which was placed by Zhikharev as a comment to other question, explains it all. Chaadaev had a valet by name Ivan.&lt;br&gt;
“He was sooner a friend than a servant of his master, and they said that he was always well-dressed, had good manners and decent demeanour although he was simple by nature. He seemed to be so decent person that one lady, one of the splendid persons ever, greeted him every time being at Chaadaev’s, and Pushkin held his hand to him.”&lt;br&gt;
Speaking about those times, we often omit the fact that noblemen moved, ate, slept, travelled being surrounded with lots of people. Servants helped them to dress, drew curtains open, served tea, made ready a carriage for masters, cleaned rooms.  The numerous domestic moved around, enveloping and pleasing all alone. This mute background is usually ignored. But in Russia in particular, being bonds, the servants should do whatever their master wanted. No matter what kind of inclinations the master had. The lord-sybarite’s valet was wearing a tail-coat from the best tailor. What wonder? One day, Chaadaev had to go for audience at the Emperor’s. He was to be wearing a tail-coat, which Chaadaev had not at his household, at that moment. The valet Jean (Ivan) gave his one to his master. The valet’s appearance corresponded to his noble lord so much that he was taken for a nobleman sometimes. There was a funny story. In those times, like in Soviet Russia, Russians abroad reckoned necessary to put in an appearance at Russian Embassy. One day, on his arrival in Dresden, Chaadaev went to the Embassy. While talking with him, Ambassador remarked that one Russian nobleman apparently did not want to introduce himself. “There he is,” Ambassador exclaimed looking out of the window and pointing to a man wearing a tail-coat, who walked along the terrace, “Over there!” “What wonder?” said Chaadaev in reply, “It’s my valet.”&lt;br&gt;
However great scandal the hero of this essay produced with his writings, he left so little for rumor about his personal life, which remained quiet and decent. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;==================================================&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Here is the links to my book, La Lune Blanche (ID #770316; ISBN 9781409299011):&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.lulu.com/content/paperback-book/la-lune-blanche/770316"&gt;http://www.lulu.com/content/paperback-book/la-lune-blanche/770316&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB.htm"&gt;http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB.htm&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB2.htm"&gt;http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB2.htm&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB3.htm"&gt;http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB3.htm&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/11/01/queer-7283574/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>life</category><category>poem</category><category>love</category><category>writer</category><category>novel</category><category>philisophy</category><category>la-lune-blanche</category><category>literature</category><category>queer</category><category>gay</category><category>prose</category><category>essay</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/11/01/queer-7283574/#comments</comments></item><item><title>colours of life</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/10/19/colours-of-life-7198815/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-10-19:/2009/10/19/colours-of-life-7198815/</guid><pubDate>Mon, 19 Oct 2009 09:39:34 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;“What colour is my cat?” I ask myself.&lt;br&gt;
Could she be called ginger? I don’t know. When she was aged 2 months, her hair could be called apricot-coloured. But her hair has changed by now, and it is rather soft-sandy-coloured. Or reddish? I am still unsure. It’s the play of light. Here are some her photos, which show the colour of her hair. Could it be called ginger? Whether I have a ginger cat now or the cat still is apricot-coloured?&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data6.blog.de/media/733/4018733_893ff179a8_m.jpg" alt="07s"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data6.blog.de/media/734/4018734_8976cba67c_m.jpg" alt="10sof_"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data6.blog.de/media/735/4018735_61125f9cea_m.jpg" alt="10sof_l"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*at home. TV&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
Here you can see my list of the TV series, which I was able to watch and liked:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/05/06/intermediation-4137004"&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/05/06/intermediation-4137004&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Recently some new shows have been added to the list. The TV shows, which I watch and love:&lt;br&gt;
American's Funniest Home Video (show)&lt;br&gt;
Prehistoric Park (a docu-fiction television mini-series)&lt;br&gt;
Peter Kingdom (UK, Stephen Fry, my favorite episode is # 8)&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://bringbackkingdom.yolasite.com/"&gt;http://bringbackkingdom.yolasite.com/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Bones (USA, detective stories)&lt;br&gt;
Without a Trace (USA, detective stories)&lt;br&gt;
Law &amp; Order (USA, detective stories)&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/10/19/colours-of-life-7198815/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>cat</category><category>kitten</category><category>sun</category><category>life</category><category>art</category><category>photo</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/10/19/colours-of-life-7198815/#comments</comments></item><item><title>autumn fibs</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/10/12/autumn-in-virtapolis-7149679/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-10-11:/2009/10/12/autumn-in-virtapolis-7149679/</guid><pubDate>Mon, 12 Oct 2009 00:59:01 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*To Writer&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
From Irony, an alien planet, to our Earth&lt;br&gt;
you have arrived in shape of lilac pollen&lt;br&gt;
and come into full blossom veiling ponds.&lt;br&gt;
All our human dreams, ideas, pains,&lt;br&gt;
these shaky earthly shades have come to life&lt;br&gt;
with that the only whiff of lilacs,&lt;br&gt;
which filled the gardens and the minds.&lt;br&gt;
Oh in this alien aroma we can see&lt;br&gt;
all earthly platitude,&lt;br&gt;
all silliness and fibs get withered.&lt;br&gt;
Brought by a cosmic concordance,&lt;br&gt;
the lilacs of your planet are a good&lt;br&gt;
and extraordinary property for us:&lt;br&gt;
the fragrance robs the life of smell of nonsense.  &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Lara Biuts © 2009&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*The Autumn Wind Ritual&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
“Naked,&lt;br&gt;
the trees quiver, branches down.&lt;br&gt;
In vain,&lt;br&gt;
Dionysus pours his sparkling juice.” (Grail Arrelsky)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*The Ancient Mists of Love&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
I.&lt;br&gt;
Like a grayish invisible cloud,&lt;br&gt;
like unshed rains,&lt;br&gt;
the mist of your killed desires&lt;br&gt;
covers all over the Vanity Land. Overhead.&lt;br&gt;
And the cloud strangles.&lt;br&gt;
Ashes of reservations, stultified vows--&lt;br&gt;
like a grayish invisible cloud.&lt;br&gt;
Will it shed rain some day? Overhead.&lt;br&gt;
But the soul is attached&lt;br&gt;
to its killed desires.&lt;br&gt;
Their deadly captivity is felt&lt;br&gt;
like invisible fetters over your body,&lt;br&gt;
like a grayish invisible cloud overhead.&lt;br&gt;
II.&lt;br&gt;
The brash of the sky in the gloomy pools.&lt;br&gt;
The pieces of summer underfoot.&lt;br&gt;
A pen-and-ink above, on the silvery gray amalgam.&lt;br&gt;
Orphaned branches dance to the sound of the wind’s saxophone.&lt;br&gt;
The translucent trees celebrate their widowhood.&lt;br&gt;
Dead leaves shine brighter than inlay--&lt;br&gt;
pieces of summer underfoot.&lt;br&gt;
I step over them. And you?&lt;br&gt;
Can you step over me?&lt;br&gt;
On the sly, with a chill,&lt;br&gt;
badly,&lt;br&gt;
doubt punches in the guts.&lt;br&gt;
III.&lt;br&gt;
Morning. Two coffees. The empty apartment.&lt;br&gt;
It’s empty, since nobody to breathe,&lt;br&gt;
and I suffocate.&lt;br&gt;
I raise the thinnest layer of the present “Without”&lt;br&gt;
from the past “With”. The ecstasy-with-you.&lt;br&gt;
It’s always here. Yours echoes mine.&lt;br&gt;
It’s ours, deep in us, it stirs.&lt;br&gt;
And every exaltation like the first. We don’t get used to it.&lt;br&gt;
I’m ready and I taste the salt of your white skin.&lt;br&gt;
The phantom of the tenderness and echo of the Words&lt;br&gt;
soaring around.&lt;br&gt;
I gulp the air of the past.&lt;br&gt;
My coffee’s getting cool, and I am late.&lt;br&gt;
Confound it.&lt;br&gt;
Confound it all.&lt;br&gt;
I recollect.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Lara Biuts © 2009&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*Why?&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
Why was it broken? The crystal panoply.&lt;br&gt;
It was not a lie for a low fun. So difficult to live without a skin.&lt;br&gt;
That wondrous armour lent you presence.&lt;br&gt;
Oh why did it become a hindrance?&lt;br&gt;
Was it so necessary to break your soul’s crystal panoply?&lt;br&gt;
The truth’s worn-out cloak can turn into a tunic of a hero.&lt;br&gt;
The pieces of the armour and the rents.&lt;br&gt;
It’s difficult to recognize the prince.&lt;br&gt;
Why was it broken?  The crystal panoply.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Lara Biuts © 2009&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*Never&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
The letter. I'll open it to see the chilling lines,&lt;br&gt;
unfriendly and aloof like statues in the autumn outside.&lt;br&gt;
I open it and look through&lt;br&gt;
the white leaves.&lt;br&gt;
The afterglow is fading in the lake. Oh summer evenings...&lt;br&gt;
My shelter never heard the beloved voice.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Lara Biuts © 2009&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;(dedicated to Oscar Wilde's birthday on the 16th of October)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*new photo album&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
My new photo album Autumn 2009 is updated. More pictures of public gardens and shady boulevards in the city, where I live--&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://cid-ac0c01aafd56c514.skydrive.live.com/embedalbum.aspx/autumn%202009"&gt;http://cid-ac0c01aafd56c514.skydrive.live.com/embedalbum.aspx/autumn%202009&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/10/12/autumn-in-virtapolis-7149679/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>novel</category><category>author</category><category>photo</category><category>essay</category><category>gay</category><category>garden</category><category>summer</category><category>love</category><category>story</category><category>picture</category><category>writer</category><category>wilde</category><category>autumn</category><category>park</category><category>life</category><category>art</category><category>poem</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/10/12/autumn-in-virtapolis-7149679/#comments</comments></item><item><title>all the evidence fits</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/10/05/all-the-evidence-fits-7100298/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-10-05:/2009/10/05/all-the-evidence-fits-7100298/</guid><pubDate>Mon, 05 Oct 2009 04:32:13 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data6.blog.de/media/604/3967604_ca5faf645e_m.jpg" alt="09sq1"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;strong&gt;*new photo album&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
Autumn 2009. Public gardens and shady boulevards in the city, where I live, my reader can see here--&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://cid-ac0c01aafd56c514.skydrive.live.com/embedalbum.aspx/autumn%202009"&gt;http://cid-ac0c01aafd56c514.skydrive.live.com/embedalbum.aspx/autumn%202009&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*music&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
Adajio by Tomaso Albinoni, my current mood--&lt;/p&gt;
	




	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*The Angels&amp;Demons Code&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
Recently, I read Dan Brown?s Angels &amp; Demons (translated), and again I would say that I appreciate this book as a good thriller (or action?), no more--like The Da Vinci Code--but it?s my firm belief that making the city of Vatican or a church in Rome a scene of a pretentious drama of the kind, which Dan Brown describes in the book, looks and sounds like bad taste. As I heard, there is one writer in the US, who earns money by writing books of comments for Dan Brown?s fiction. As I suspect, the writers are more than one. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*just following my own way&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
Two articles on Wikipedia that I find interesting.&lt;br&gt;
Reading the first one--&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vladimir_Bukovsky"&gt;http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vladimir_Bukovsky&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
--my reader can learn of one of men, who were lords of my sublimed dreams, when I was young girl. One of living men, my compatriot, and not one of the dead white European men, writers and artists. Vladimir Bukovsky. Currently living in the UK. You can see his Facebook fan group here--&lt;br&gt;
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The second article is about the man, of whose life I learnt only last year, and who left the present day Russia, with all its ?freedoms?, leaving for the USA, and being not about to return. Oleg Kalugin--&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oleg_Kalugin"&gt;http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oleg_Kalugin&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
It?s easy to suppose that Mr Bukovsky hates the idea of his name being compared with and in the close neighborhood with Mr Kalugin, but I could not help placing the two names here, in this note, because the men are equally dear for me. Mr V. B. used to be an icon of my teens, and Mr O. K. looks like my late father (army-man) so much and his politics and choice are so close to my late father?s and mine.&lt;/p&gt;
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"Yes, the objective form is the most subjective in manner. Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he will tell you the truth."&amp;mdash; &lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/3565.Oscar_Wilde" title="view all quotes by Oscar Wilde"&gt;Oscar Wilde&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/10/05/all-the-evidence-fits-7100298/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>youth</category><category>autumn</category><category>books</category><category>photo</category><category>park</category><category>poems</category><category>bukovsky</category><category>kalugin</category><category>dan-brown</category><category>ideas</category><category>art</category><category>angelsdemons</category><category>politics</category><category>life</category><category>love</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/10/05/all-the-evidence-fits-7100298/#comments</comments></item><item><title>the autumn kid</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/09/27/the-autumn-kid-7046879/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-09-27:/2009/09/27/the-autumn-kid-7046879/</guid><pubDate>Sun, 27 Sep 2009 04:46:35 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;On the 1st of September 2009, Bill Kaulitz from Tokio Hotel was 20 (if I am not mistaken). Time glides, and the boy grows up, getting older and older. This posting is my reminder of the fact how beautiful he was when he was young (like my boy Jocelyn, like many boys, who used to drive people out of their mind)--&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/09/27/the-autumn-kid-7046879/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>music</category><category>boy</category><category>tokio-hotel</category><category>beauty</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/09/27/the-autumn-kid-7046879/#comments</comments></item><item><title>09.09.09</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/09/09/09-09-6930633/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-09-09:/2009/09/09/09-09-6930633/</guid><pubDate>Wed, 09 Sep 2009 14:50:31 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;Take a guess, on which top the kitten is lying (picture below)? &lt;br&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/969/3877969_2bb465b045_s.jpg" alt="09sofie"&gt;  &lt;br&gt;&lt;span&gt;The kitten is my young kitty Sophie Sun. She is 4 month old, and she is all right at present. She is a vivid kitten with good appetite. &lt;br&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/968/3877968_850169c335_m.jpg" alt="08sofie3m"&gt;&lt;span&gt;  &lt;br&gt;Story of Sophie my reader can read here: &lt;br&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;a href="http://fluffofchoice.blog.co.uk/2009/08/25/story-of-sophie-6813124/"&gt;http://fluffofchoice.blog.co.uk/2009/08/25/story-of-sophie-6813124/&lt;/a&gt; &lt;br&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/190/3878190_4cde40b34a_m.jpg" alt="09s"&gt; &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span lang="EN-US"&gt;&lt;span&gt;&lt;span&gt;Take a guess what did cause the kitten’s attention in the picture below? What did she watch?&lt;br&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/400/3919400_eda19c6328_m.jpg" alt="09sof"&gt; &lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span lang="EN-US"&gt;&lt;span&gt;&lt;span&gt;The answer is:&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span lang="EN-US"&gt;&lt;span&gt;&lt;span&gt;it’s the pendant of my phone, which I held in my hand taking the picture.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span lang="EN-US"&gt;&lt;span&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;span&gt;Below: On the chair in my Grandma’s room (without Grandma).&lt;br&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span lang="EN-US"&gt;&lt;span&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/401/3919401_1257f7f4b5_m.jpg" alt="09ro"&gt; &lt;/span&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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	&lt;p&gt;Believe it or not but this picture (below) was removed from my Hi5 profile (!!)&lt;br&gt;
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	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*Summer, farewell!&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;One sunny September day.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/595/3867595_5743bc4aad_m.jpg" alt="09w"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;recollecting the past summer&lt;br&gt;
&lt;strong&gt;*Impromptu&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
by &lt;strong&gt;Lesya Ukrainka (Larysa Kosach-Kvitka, 1871-1913)&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;br&gt;
(the incomplete translation and the epigraph are mine)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;“Oh have mercy on me.&lt;br&gt;
Keeping silence, keep out.&lt;br&gt;
Listen, hour approaches,&lt;br&gt;
oh golden midnight&lt;br&gt;
hour.” (Lara Biuts)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;At the hour when nicotianas blooming,&lt;br&gt;
shining in the night mist like a falling star,&lt;br&gt;
pale with a secret passion,&lt;br&gt;
then everything around submits to an obscure power.&lt;br&gt;
And if you are with someone at the moments,&lt;br&gt;
and the eyes are shining&lt;br&gt;
with mysterious fire like a reflection of the starry night,&lt;br&gt;
and the beloved voice sounds like rippling of a magic fount,&lt;br&gt;
run away&lt;br&gt;
away from the casting a spell.&lt;br&gt;
For it’ll make fire in your heart, at the hour&lt;br&gt;
when nicotianas blooming.&lt;br&gt;
At the hour when nicotianas blooming,&lt;br&gt;
everything around is delusive.&lt;br&gt;
The silence of the night is dangerous like silence of a fatal roller,&lt;br&gt;
which keeps a silence of a tomb.&lt;br&gt;
And often, it goes like this:&lt;br&gt;
a swarm of sounds comes, and like a bird you feeling startles,&lt;br&gt;
and recollection gives a glint in darkness--&lt;br&gt;
it’s like an unknown friend opens a book of a forgotten novel--&lt;br&gt;
oh! if your repose is dear for you, don’t touch the pages of the novel,&lt;br&gt;
at the hour,&lt;br&gt;
when nicotianas blooming.&lt;/p&gt;
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"Yes, the objective form is the most subjective in manner. Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he will tell you the truth."&amp;mdash; &lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/3565.Oscar_Wilde" title="view all quotes by Oscar Wilde"&gt;Oscar Wilde&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
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by &lt;strong&gt;P. Sufenas Virius Lupus&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The Ekklesía Antínoou is a queer, Graeco-Roman-Egyptian syncretist reconstructionist polytheist group dedicated to Antinous, the deified lover of the Roman Emperor Hadrian.  Historically, the cultus’ origin dates to late 130 C.E., and the specific location which it first began was the site of the future city of Antinoöpolis in Egypt (which was then called Hir-Wer, which had a small settlement called Besa beforehand), because of the drowning of Antinous in the Nile near that location, which granted immortality to its victims in Egyptian belief.  However, Antinous himself was of Arcadian Greek descent, having been born in Bithynion-Claudiopo lis (near Bolu in modern Turkey), a colony of Mantineia, in the Roman province of Pontus-Bithynia on the coast of the Black Sea in Asia Minor.  And, of course, despite being a philhellene, the Emperor himself was Roman, with a family originating in Spain.  The cultus ended up spreading quite widely across the Empire, into Italy and the city of Rome itself, but it was particularly popular in the Greek East, and Antinoöpolis remained a vital and interesting city religiously for many centuries.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Thus, the historical heritage of the modern Ekklesía Antínoou is Egyptian, Greek, and Roman, and this heritage is recognized at the beginning of every major public ritual of the group, no matter what the occasion or the content of the ritual happens to be.[1]  Before the opening acclamations and procession of the image of Antinous in any ritual, invocations are said to the deities Wepwawet, Hekate, and Ianus (in that order) to recognize the seniority of the religious traditions standing behind the emergence of the cultus of Antinous.  While Egyptian culture did flourish long before the other two, and Greek culture also had its centuries in the sun before being eclipsed by Rome, the specific order here also refers to the circumstances surrounding Antinous’ death and its particular link to deification from Egypt, the boy’s birth in Bithynia and his upbringing and heritage in Greek culture, and finally his association to the Roman Emperor and the imperial cultus, which was the reason for the success and spread of his cultus (at least initially).  It is almost as if the idea of past-present- future in this construction equates to death being in the past (for the past is, indeed, dead), birth in the present (for the present is always being born), and life and love in the future (for what do both life and love yearn for other than their continuation into infinity?).  Further, the male (animal-headed) form of Wepwawet, the female form of Hekate, and the often bisexual[2] form of two-headed Ianus[3] encompasses a great deal (though by no means all) of the gender diversity of the modern membership of the Ekklesía Antínoou.  Much more could be said about this formulation symbolically and theologically, but the present discussion is concerned with other particularities.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;One difficulty that might arise in people’s minds over this practice is that Wepwawet, Hekate, and Ianus are not attested in any known archaeological artifacts, inscriptions, or literary texts in close association with Antinous.  Therefore, it might be asked:  how did these associations emerge, and what is the purpose of maintaining them?  In honor of the present anthology’s dedication, the majority of this discussion will focus on Hekate, but a brief treatment of Wepwawet and Ianus before proceeding to our goddess honorand would be useful for the sake of thoroughness.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Wepwawet is a very ancient Egyptian deity whose name means “Opener of the Ways,” who is portrayed as jackal-headed.  While there are other deities in Egypt that are likewise portrayed, the most commonly recognized one is Anubis, the son of Osiris and Nephthys, who was subsequently the god most associated with embalming, and as time went on, the psychopomp function of the latter blended with the “way-opening” of the former.[4]  Plutarch’s On Isis and Osiris 14 gives a curious story as to why the canine association attended the deity:  because his mother had exposed him in fear of Set/Typhon, and when Isis sought him out to assist in her search for Osiris with the help of dogs, Anubis subsequently became her guardian just as dogs guard men.[5]  Anubis was subsequently often grouped with Serapis, Isis, and Harpocrates in the later Graeco-Roman-Egyptian cultus to Serapis and Isis, and syncretized forms of Anubis emerged in combination with Hermes Psychopompos, becoming Hermanubis.[6]  The later Christian saint Christopher was also portrayed as cynocephalic, was celebrated on July 25th (the festival of Hermanubis), and in fact it is possible that his name etymologizes as Christ oupherou, “Christ’s way-opener,” hearkening back to the roots of this figure in Wepwawet.[7]  There is one Egyptian tomb painting, the so-called “Tondo of the Two Brothers,” which was found in Antinoöpolis, which depicts two men, each of whom has a deity (possibly their patron?) over one of his shoulders.  The younger man has Osirantinous over his shoulder, while the older has Hermanubis.[8]  As a way-opener and psychopomp, the figures of Wepwawet, Anubis, and Hermanubis (conceived as one cynocephalic being or as separate individual deities) make excellent deities to invoke initially in any Ekklesía Antínoou rituals. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Ianus is fairly well recognized amongst modern people as the two-headed or two-faced deity of ancient Rome under the name “Janus,” and his name contains the root of the word janitor (i.e. a door-keeper) , and the month-name January.  Ovid’s Fasti 1.63-288 explains a number of ancient Roman associations with the deity, including why the new year begins during his month, why he has multiple faces, and why offerings are made to him first of all in rituals.[9]  In Ekklesía Antínoou reckoning, three important holidays fall within the month of January.  On January 1st, the death of Aelius Caesar, the first adopted heir of the Emperor Hadrian, is observed, despite Hadrian’s wishes not to mark the occasion or offer him deification[10] (which does not seem to have stopped many people later in history from reckoning him deified).  On January 24th, Hadrian’s dies natalis (birthdate) is celebrated.[11]  Finally, late in the month, on January 29th, the first appearance of the star of Antinous in 131 C.E. (about three months after his death) is celebrated, as this date has been revealed by examination of Chinese astronomical records.[12]  The order of these dates, interestingly, supports the idea of “past, present, future” mentioned previously, as represented by the death festival of Divus Aelius Caesar, the birth of Divus Hadrianus, and then the continuing presence and hope offered by the star of Antinous.  As all of these take place within the month in which Ianus is most honored, giving him a share of ongoing honors by the Ekklesía Antínoou also makes logical sense, apart from the Roman customs which would give him this privilege in any case.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Now, at last, to the great goddess Hekate.  Interestingly, Hekate has relations to the other two deities mentioned previously, and thus acts as an excellent intermediate or bridging figure in the order in which the three deities are invoked in ritual.  Hekate is related to Anubis by Plutarch in On Isis and Osiris 44 in an intriguing passage, which I give here in full:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;When Nephthys gave birth to Anubis, Isis treated the child as if it were her own; for Nephthys is that which is beneath the Earth and invisible, Isis that which is above the Earth and visible; and the circle which touches these, called the horizon, being common to both, has received the name Anubis, and is represented in form like a dog; for the dog can see with his eyes both by night and by day alike.  And among the Egyptians Anubis is thought to possess this faculty, which is similar to that which Hekate is thought to possess among the Greeks, for Anubis is a deity of the lower world as well as a god of Olympus.  Some are of the opinion that Anubis is Kronos.  For this reason, inasmuch as he generates all things out of himself and conceives all things within himself, he has gained the appellation of “Dog.”  There is, therefore, a certain mystery observed by those who revere Anubis; in ancient times the dog obtained the highest honors in Egypt; but, when Cambyses had slain the Apis and cast him forth, nothing came near the body or ate of it save only the dog; and thereby the dog lost his primacy and place of honor above that of all the other animals.[13]&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Hekate is connected to dogs from a very early period in Greek culture,[14] and thus this connection between Anubis and Hekate makes sense in other manners as well as those outlined here.  The idea that Hekate, like Anubis, has a share in chthonic as well as celestial realms is found as early as Hesiod’s passage from the Theogony 411-452, in which Hekate is said to have been honored by Zeus above all others, and to have been given a share of the land, the sea, and the sky, and that she had a share due to her from all who came forth from earth and sky.[15]  Thus, it would be sensible for any deity who has both chthonic and celestial natures—as Antinous does—to also acknowledge these other deities who likewise share such spheres of influence!&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Hekate is further related to Ianus in a number of instances from classical literature.  Ovid’s Fasti 1.89-144 mentions the two together at one point toward the end of this section, particularly in Hekate’s aspect as three-faced and the appearance of Ianus Bifrons (“two-faced,” called here biformis),[16] in his explanation for the reasons for the deity’s double-faced aspect.  Further, the fifth century neoplatonist Proclus has a hymn in which he honors Hekate and Ianus together, praising the former as the mother of the gods and guardian of the gates, and the latter as Zeus and the forefather of all.[17]  These two multiple-aspected deities, both of whom are connected with or syncretized to the titanic generation of immortals, and for whom beginnings and safe passages are particularly important, could only be expected to become more elevated in status and perceived power as time went on.  As a grouping, therefore, Wepwawet, Hekate, and Ianus are very apt for any Graeco-Roman- Egyptian practitioner to consider in their preliminary rites.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Hekate occurs on a number of occasions in a particular text from the corpus of the Greek Magical Papyri, specifically PGM IV, which has a number of noteworthy Antinoan connections.  PGM IV was formerly known as the “Great Magical Papyrus of Paris,” and is probably a fourth-century C.E. copy of a second-century C.E. original.[18]  The two things which most closely connect this composition to an Antinoan context are as follows:  a version of one of the spells found therein, lines 296-466,[19] is found with a figurine like the one described in the recipe with a specific invocation of Antinous, probably from the vicinity of Antinoöpolis;[20] and, one of the spells in the papyrus is ascribed to Pachrates, an Egyptian mage who gave the spell to Hadrian.[21]  More will be said about this figure in the discussion to follow below.  However, it does remain to see what role Hekate plays in PGM IV.  On three occasions, the voces magicae in a spell read “AKTIOPHIS ERESCHIGAL NEBOUTOSOUALETH,”[22] and Betz notes that Aktiophis is an epithet of Selene, but as Selene, Artemis, and Hekate were syncretized and considered forms of the moon by this stage, it is possible that Hekate gives some of her more fierce associations to the spells concerned; indeed, Betz remarks that this particular formula might specifically refer to Hekate.[23]  The formula “ERESCHIGAL NEBOUTOSOUALETH” occurs once in a spell that refers to Hekate specifically.[24]  In two further spells, a three-headed figure of Hekate must be created as an ingredient of the spell concerned.[25]  While it is impossible to be certain where this papyrus originated, or who the compiler and intended users happened to be, the specific occurrence of the AKTIOPHI ERESCHIGAL NEBOUTOSOUALETH formula in Pachrates’ spell, plus the occurrence of Hekate in general, and Hekate as an equivalent/syncreti sm of Selene, is of particular interest for Antinoan purposes.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In an interesting fragmentary Antinoan text from c. 285 C.E., from the Oxyrynchus Papyri, and discovered in about 1993, comes a section discussing the lion hunt of Hadrian and Antinous (on which more in a moment), and also Antinous’ deification.  This fragment includes the idea that Antinous’ deification took place in a manner parallel to that of Endymion, when it says that Selene, “upon more brilliant hopes bade him shine as a star-like bridegroom and garlanding the night like with a circle she took him for her husband.”[26]  There is some evidence to indicate that other deified imperial figures associated with the Hadrianic regime—specifically, his sister Aelia Domitia Paulina—was syncretized to Selene in certain instances.[27]  The remembrance of other members of the Hadrianic and Traianic imperial families in the demoi-names of Antinoöpolis was established from the earliest times of the city’s founding,[28] Hadrian’s foundation of which being noted immediately after the passage above.[29]  J. R. Rea’s notes on this passage even suggest that chthonic Hekate’s role in deification of mortals may be alluded to in this syncretism with Selene.[30]  Antinous’ connection to Diana (the Roman goddess often syncretized with Artemis, likewise syncretized to Luna, the functional equivalent of Selene) at a particular cult at Lanuvium near Rome is also known,[31] and is highly suggestive in the present case.[32]&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;But this is only the tail end, as it were, of that particular narrative section of the poem concerned.  The previous portion of the poem discusses the lion hunt of Hadrian and Antinous, culminating in its various mythological allusions and discussion of the lotus-miracle emerging from the event with the words “into the Nile he hurried for purification of the blood of the lion….”[33]  The lotus miracle is mentioned in a prose piece from a papyrus found at Tebtynis,[34] and the lion hunt is treated in a number of other locations, including a further papyrus fragment from Oxyrynchus, giving more details on the actual hunt,[35] as well as sculpturally on the hunting tondo now on the arch of Constantine in Rome,[36] but most importantly for present purposes, in a passage from Athenaeus’ Deipnosophistae (“The Learned Banqueters”) 15.677, in which the origin of the poetic tradition on these matters is credited to one Pancrates, an Egyptian poet.[37]  This Pancrates is conjectured to be the same person as the Pachrates referred to in the PGM IV text as having given the particular spell there to Hadrian, and he may likewise be the same figure as the Egyptian priest Pancrates referred to in Lukian of Samosata’s Philopseudes (“Lover of Lies”), a satirical text which is the earliest occurrence of the “sorcerer’s apprentice” motif.[38]  In other writings, Lukian alludes to the Antinoan cultus in a less-than-flatterin g light,[39] and thus this particular appearance of Pancrates in a text showing how supposed magicians and those with esoteric knowledge prey upon the witless would be a further commentary on the perception of the Antinoan cultus, with its miracles involving lions and lotuses, the star which was said to be Antinous’ katasterism, and the overabundant inundation of the Nile in 131 which was attributed to Antinous’ death.[40]  Hekate and her epiphany plays a large role elsewhere in Lukian’s Philopseudes, and the narration of her epiphany is likewise attributed to Eucrates, the character in the frame-tale who also interacted with Pancrates.[41]  The connection of PGM IV to Hekate generally, and particularly in Pachrates’ spell therein, and likewise the connection between Pancrates as the final (and epitomizing) tale in the Philopseudes and Hekate’s appearances therein as well, is nothing if not suggestive.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;But, even more interesting in relation to Hekate is a lost text (or texts) dating from some decades after the origins of the Antinoan cultus, namely, the Chaldean Oracles, a late second-century C.E. corpus which survive in fragments from various commentaries on the corpus from the mid-third century onwards, and well into the Christian period.[42]  In fragment 147, found in the commentary of the eleventh-century C.E. Michael Psellus’ work, the epiphany of Hekate is said to come with a darkening of the heavens (both the lights of stars and moon), earthquakes and lightning, and that “you will observe all things in the form of a lion” (athréseis pánta léonta).[43]  The other characteristics of this epiphany are echoed in the epiphany of Hekate in Lukian’s Philopseudes mentioned earlier.[44]  In the manner via which Antinous is said to have slain the lion, purified its blood in the Nile (which became the red Nile lotus thereafter named for Antinous), and then gone on to his deification through Selene in the Oxyrynchus papyrus from c. 285 C.E. discussed above, the fact that Pancrates/Pachrates is probably the source of this particular bit of theological mythology, and that Hekate is intimately connected with what can be reconstructed of Pancrates/Pachrates’ overall magical and religious milieu, I cannot help but think that it is possible that Hekate’s epiphany as a lion might also play into the overall construction of this mytheme.[45]&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Of the three gatekeeper, way-clearer and mediator deities reckoned in Ekklesía Antínoou ritual practice and devotion, connections of them to Antinous’ ancient cultus are difficult to reconstruct with any certainty; but of these, the most intriguing and compelling case can be made for Hekate, for all of the reasons previously explained.  However, as we are reconstructionists, and actual practices on the ground are also impossible to know with any certainty, it is just as well to claim modern interest and appeal for these deities to be included in rituals, and to honor them in preliminary rites on festival occasions.  It should be the task of everyone involved in reconstructed traditions to not only research attested ancient practices with diligence and discernment, but also to create new practices which will infuse the old traditions with new life, relevant for people in the modern world, because it is in the modern world—and always in the present (whether the eternal present of myth or the temporal present of our daily lives and experiences)— that ritual and devotion takes place.  Even if Pancrates/Pachrates were to be called up from the dead and interviewed on these matters, and if his answers to the specific points of this discussion all happened to be met with negatives, ridicule, and derision, the theological formulations and mythic constructions of the early twenty-first century are no more nor less authentic and useful than the users of them find them to be.  And how appropriate, therefore, that of the three deities, perhaps representing the past, the present, and the future, that the mediating term of the three, Hekate, is the one also representing the temporal present, and the one who, even in absence, seems to be the most present in the mythos of Antinous.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[1] Some holidays, feasts, and celebrations in the group are specifically Antinoan in nature; others are versions of historically- attested festivals from ancient Mediterranean cultures, like the Lupercalia, Serapeia, or other such occasions.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[2] “Bisexual” is here understood in the gender rather than sexual orientation sense; while this is a more antiquated usage, “hermaphroditic” or “intersexed” are also not quite appropriate terms for description of this form and understanding of the deity. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[3] Macrobius, Saturnalia 1.9.8; see Percival Vaughan Davies (trans.), Macrobius, The Saturnalia, Records of Civilization, Sources and Studies 79 (London and New York:  Columbia University Press, 1969), p. 67.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[4] For some information on this, see Terence DuQuesne, Anubis, Upwawet, and Other Deities:  Personal Worship and Official Religion in Ancient Egypt (Cairo:  The Egyptian Museum Cairo/Supreme Council of Antiquities Press, 2007).&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[5] Frank Cole Babbitt (trans.), Plutarch, Moralia, Volume V (Cambridge:  Harvard University Press, 1936, reprint 2003), pp. 38-39.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[6] Jean-Claude Grenier, Anubis Alexandrin et Romain (Leiden:  E. J. Brill, 1977), particularly pp. 53-59 on Hermes-Anubis/ Hermanubis.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[7] David Gordon White, Myths of the Dog-Man (Chicago and London:  University of Chicago Press, 1991), pp. 43-44.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[8] Ann E. Haeckl, “Brothers or Lovers?  A New Reading of the ‘Tondo of the Two Brothers’,” Bulletin of the American Society of Papyrologists 38 (2001), pp. 63-78 and Plate 6.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[9] Sir James George Frazer (trans.), Ovid, Fasti (Cambridge:  Harvard University Press, 1931), pp. 6-23.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[10] Anthony R. Birley, Hadrian the Restless Emperor (London and New York:  Routledge, 2000), pp. 292-294.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[11] Mary Beard, John North, and Simon Price (eds./trans. ), Religions of Rome, Volume 2:  A Sourcebook (Cambridge:  Cambridge University Press, 1998, reprint 2001), p. 72, which is an early third century military calendar from Dura Europus recording the dies natalis of Aelius Caesar on January 13 and that of Hadrian on the 24th; see also an Egyptian calendar fragment from Tebtynis, in S. Eitrem and Leiv Amundsen (eds.), Papyri Osloenses, Vol. 3 (Oslo:  The Academy of Science and Letters at Oslo, 1936), pp. 54-55, which records both dates as well.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[12] J. R. Rea (ed./trans.) , The Oxyrynchus Papyri, Vol. 63 (London:  Egypt Exploration Society, 1996), pp. 14-15.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[13] Babbitt, pp. 106-107.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[14] On this, see Phillip A. Bernhardt-House’ s essay elsewhere in the present volume.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[15] Glenn W. Most (trans.), Hesiod, Theogony, Works and Days, Testimonia (Cambridge:  Harvard University Press, 2006), pp. 36-39.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[16] Frazer, pp. 8-13.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[17] Frederick C. Grant, Hellenistic Religions:  The Age of Syncretism, Library of Liberal Arts 134 (Indianapolis and New York:  The Liberal Arts Press/The Bobbs-Merrill Company, Inc., 1953), p. 172.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[18] Daniel Ogden, Night’s Black Agents:  Witches, Wizards and the Dead in the Ancient World (London and New York:  Hambledon Continuum, 2008), p. 116.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[19] Hans Dieter Betz (ed./trans.) , The Greek Magical Papyri in Translation including the Demotic Spells, Volume One:  Texts, Second Edition, with an updated bibliography (Chicago:  University of Chicago Press, 1992; paperback edition 1996).  Further references to this work in the present article are hereafter indicated by PGM followed by papyrus number, lines, and pages of Betz’ edition.  An alternate translation, with commentary, of this spell is found in Daniel Ogden, Magic, Witchcraft, and Ghosts in the Greek and Roman Worlds:  A Sourcebook (Oxford and New York:  Oxford University Press, 2002), pp. 247-250 §239.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[20] John G. Gager, Curse Tablets and Binding Spells from the Ancient World (New York and Oxford:  Oxford University Press, 1999), pp. 97-100 §28; Beard, North, and Price, pp. 266-267 §11.5a; Ogden, Magic, Witchcraft, pp. 250-251 §240.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[21] PGM IV, 2441-2621, pp. 82-86.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[22] PGM IV, 2441-2621, p. 83, lines 2483-2486; 2708-2784, pp. 89-90, lines 2745-2753; 2891-2942, p. 93, lines 2912-2915.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[23] Betz, p. 337 s.v. NEBOUTOSOUALETH.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[24] PGM IV, 1390-1495, p. 65, lines 1417-1420.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[25] PGM IV, 2006-2125, p. 75, lines 2119-2123; 2785-2890, p. 92, lines 2880-2884.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[26] Rea, p. 10.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[27] Günter Grimm, “Paulina und Antinous.  Zure Vergöttlichung der Hadriansschwester in Äegypten,” in Christoph Börker and Michael Donderer (eds.), Das antike Rom und der Osten:  Festschrift für Klaus Parlasca zum 65. Geburtstag (Erlangen:  Universitätsbund Erlanden-Nürnberg e. V.,1990), pp. 33-44.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[28] Mary Taliaferro Boatwright, Hadrian and the Cities of the Roman Empire (Princeton and Oxford:  Princeton University Press, 2000), p. 194 note 124.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[29] Rea, p. 10.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[30] Rea, p. 13 note 11.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[31] Beard, North, and Price, pp. 292-294 §12.2.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[32] I have treated this topic more extensively elsewhere; see “Artemis and the Cult of Antinous,” in Thista Minai et al. (eds.), Unbound:  A Devotional Anthology for Artemis (Eugene:  Bibliotheca Alexandrina, 2009), pp. 106-112.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[33] Rea, p. 10.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[34] Achille Vogliano (ed.), Papiri della R. Universita di Milano, Volume 1 (Milan:  Ulrico Hoepli, 1937), pp. 175-183 at 176-179.  See also the “poetic” translation of this text in my book, The Phillupic Hymns (Eugene:  Bibliotheca Alexandrina, 2008), pp. 54-55 and 260 (notes).&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[35] Arthur S. Hunt (ed./trans.) , The Oxyrynchus Papyri, Vol. 8 (London:  Egypt Exploration Society, 1911), pp. 73-77, which is conjectured to be a fragment of Pancrates’ actual poem.  See also D. L. Page (ed./trans.) , Select Papyri III:  Literary Papyri, Poetry (Cambridge:  Harvard University Press, 1957), pp. 516-519.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[36] Mary Taliaferro Boatwright, Hadrian and the City of Rome (Princeton and Oxford:  Princeton University Press, 1987), p. 190-202.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[37] Charles Burton Gulick (ed./trans.) , Athenaeus, Depinosophistae, Volume 7 (Cambridge:  Harvard University Press, 1941), pp. 126-129.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[38] Ogden, Magic, Witchcraft, pp. 54-55 §54; In Search of the Sorcerer’s Apprentice:  The Traditional Tales of Lucian’s Lover of Lies (Swansea:  The Classical Press of Wales, 2007), pp. 60-61, 231-270; Night’s Black Agents, pp. 95, 98, 122-123.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[39] Royston Lambert, Beloved and God:  The Story of Hadrian and Antinous (New York:  Viking, 1984), pp. 94, 96, 192; A. M. Harmon (ed./trans.) , Lucian, Volume V (Cambrdige:  Harvard University Press, 1962), pp. 426-433 (“The Parliament of the Gods”); M. D. MacLeod (ed./trans.) , Lucian, Volume VII (Cambrdige:  Harvard University Press, 1962), pp. 268-281 (“Dialogues of the Gods:  Zeus and Hera”), and 281-291 (“Dialogues of the Gods:  Zeus and Ganymede”), the latter of which has never been discussed as a possibility of further Antinoan allusion.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[40] I hope to treat this topic further in the future, but I would note that the near-flood caused by the misuse of the spell learned by the character taught by Pancrates in this narrative might mirror the excessive, and even destructive, flooding of the Nile that followed Antinous’ death.  For evidence of this flooding, see Bernard P. Grenfell and Arthur S. Hunt (ed./trans.) , The Oxyrynchus Papyri, Vol. 3 (London:  Egypt Exploration Society, 1903), pp. 180-183; Eitrem and Amundsen, pp. 55-61. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[41] Ogden, Magic, Witchcraft, pp. 272-273 §275; In Search of the Sorcerer’s Apprentice, pp. 54-56, 161-170.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[42] See Sarah Iles Johnston, Hekate Soteira:  A Study of Hekate’s Roles in the Chaldean Oracles and Related Literature (Atlanta:  Scholars Press, 1990), pp. 1-12.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[43] Johnston, pp. 111-112.  Johnston does not accept the text as it stands in Psellus, and instead insists on a textual emendation, because she does not understand how this line could make sense.  As should be obvious, I opine that greater credence should be given to the text as it exists, and to the adept commentary on it given by Psellus.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[44] Johnston, p. 116.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;[45] While I do not wish to insist upon the point, I’m also reminded of another passage from Plutarch’s On Isis and Osiris (38), which concerns the connection between the dog-star Sirius and lions observed by the Egyptians, and the rising of the former during the Zodiac month of the latter, which heralds the inundation of the Nile; see Babbitt, pp. 90-93.  As Anubis and Hekate seem to share some connection, and Anubis (as well as Hekate) are both said to be cynocephalic, and cynocephali are connected very much to the dog-star, there is the possibility of some synchronism of tradition in that regard.  However, more compelling for present purposes is the fact that the inundation of the Nile is attributed to Antinous’ miraculous intervention, and therefore its further connection to the lion-month might have been a further factor in Pancrates/Pachrates’ theological formulations. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/08/21/an-article-6771416/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>egypt</category><category>history</category><category>pagan</category><category>greece</category><category>antinous</category><category>rome</category><category>hadrian</category><category>gods</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/08/21/an-article-6771416/#comments</comments></item><item><title>poemhunter</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/07/25/poemhunter-6583243/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-07-25:/2009/07/25/poemhunter-6583243/</guid><pubDate>Sat, 25 Jul 2009 06:01:27 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Without Me&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The day will come--I will disappear,&lt;br&gt;
and in this empty room&lt;br&gt;
all will be the same: the table, the bench,&lt;br&gt;
and the icon, ancient and simple.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;And in the same way will there fly in&lt;br&gt;
the colorful butterfly in silk,&lt;br&gt;
flutter, rustle and tremble&lt;br&gt;
against the blue ceiling.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;And in the same way will the sky's bottom&lt;br&gt;
peer into the open window,&lt;br&gt;
and the sea, with its even azure,&lt;br&gt;
beckon into its desert-like expanse.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;(Ivan Bunin)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Who Ever Loved That Loved Not at First Sight?&lt;/strong&gt; &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;It lies not in our power to love or hate,&lt;br&gt;
For will in us is overruled by fate.&lt;br&gt;
When two are stripped, long ere the course begin,&lt;br&gt;
We wish that one should love, the other win; &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;And one especially do we affect&lt;br&gt;
Of two gold ingots, like in each respect:&lt;br&gt;
The reason no man knows; let it suffice&lt;br&gt;
What we behold is censured by our eyes.&lt;br&gt;
Where both deliberate, the love is slight:&lt;br&gt;
Who ever loved, that loved not at first sight? &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;(Christopher Marlowe)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;A Clear Midnight&lt;/strong&gt; &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;This is thy hour O Soul, thy free flight into the wordless,&lt;br&gt;
Away from books, away from art, the day erased, the lesson done,&lt;br&gt;
Thee fully forth emerging, silent, gazing, pondering the themes thou&lt;br&gt;
lovest best.&lt;br&gt;
Night, sleep, and the stars. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;(Walt Whitman)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin&lt;br&gt;
Dance me through the panic till I'm gathered safely in&lt;br&gt;
Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;br&gt;
Oh let me see your beauty when the witnesses are gone&lt;br&gt;
Let me feel you moving like they do in Babylon&lt;br&gt;
Show me slowly what I only know the limits of&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;br&gt;
Me to the wedding now, dance me on and on&lt;br&gt;
Dance me very tenderly and dance me very long&lt;br&gt;
Were both of us beneath our love, were both of us above&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the children who are asking to be born&lt;br&gt;
Dance me through the curtains that our kisses have outworn&lt;br&gt;
Raise a tent of shelter now, though every thread is torn&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin&lt;br&gt;
Dance me through the panic till I’m gathered safely in&lt;br&gt;
Touch me with your naked hand or touch me with your glove&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;br&gt;
Dance me to the end of love&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;(Leonard Cohen)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*a streamlet of consciousness&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
“Ten o'clock postman, make me feel better!”...bring me a letter! No, not the msn, which rings reproachfully: “399 messages in your inbox!”, but a real postman, not virtual, bring me a letter. A real one and very touchable. From my beloved one. Or maybe a phone call is better? What do you think? Oh yes, to sink into the mellow pool of the beloved voice. Incomparable. That’s why I don’t compare. In addition, a letter gives pleasure to the eye. Email? Well, an e-message is good too, and it is visible too, but it cannot be touched. True, you can touch the e-lines on the screen, really the monitor is all-enduring, but it’s so good to hold in hands, slightly trembling, the piece of paper, which my Sun touched lately, and to peer at the angular flying lines, and to be assured in the end that the lines were written by a quill, which his wings dropped, or to conjecture about the little spots on the bottom of the piece of paper, which look like… here I can arrange a mini Rorschach test for myself… and so, what did cause the spots? What if it’s tears? Letters are so different. An e-mail cannot be pressed tightly to your breast, next to your heart, while you feel so confused with this gesture, and you cannot put an e-mail under the pillow for goodnight. An e-mail cannot be crumpled or torn in hundred pieces, in fury, and it cannot be thrown to the open window, outside, away away! while you repeat again and again the words, which hurt so much, and then you cannot rush after the thrown scraps, downstairs, at breakneck speed, outdoors, and you cannot go down on hands and knees looking for the scraps, while it’s drizzling and passers-by are watching with surprise as you, wearing new jeans, are rummaging over the mud of the damp lawn, seeking not to miss a precious scrap of what was the message, oh so long-awaited! All this is impossible with an e-mail. The saddest sorrow of the world is the sorrow of unread messages. And almost tragic are unwritten ones. Therefore--ten o'clock postman, bring me a letter! bring me your letter.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Sirius rises today. Happy birthday everyone, who was born under the sign of Leo!&lt;/strong&gt; &lt;/p&gt;
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	&lt;p&gt;Here is the link to my book, La Lune Blanche (ID #770316):&lt;br&gt;
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/07/25/poemhunter-6583243/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>art</category><category>summer</category><category>sirius</category><category>leo</category><category>blogging</category><category>love</category><category>erotic</category><category>poems</category><category>mail</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/07/25/poemhunter-6583243/#comments</comments></item><item><title>greenness</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/07/25/greenness-6583236/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-07-25:/2009/07/25/greenness-6583236/</guid><pubDate>Sat, 25 Jul 2009 05:52:50 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://i014.radikal.ru/0907/f6/623b64d3603a.gif" alt="" title=""&gt;&lt;br&gt;
One ancient Chinese sage was asked one day who or what he would like to be. The sage replied: “A dead cat.” “Why?” he was asked. And he replied: “Because a dead cat has no price.”&lt;br&gt;
Now, my poem:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Healthy, relatively happy,&lt;br&gt;
I am every dying dog&lt;br&gt;
or cat&lt;br&gt;
or other animal.&lt;br&gt;
Every time you see a dead dog&lt;br&gt;
or cat&lt;br&gt;
on your way,&lt;br&gt;
stop to spend some time in silence,&lt;br&gt;
for you see me.&lt;br&gt;
Stop if you ever breathed,&lt;br&gt;
stop to honor us&lt;br&gt;
for this that we lived&lt;br&gt;
and died.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The sense of the poem is in the following:&lt;br&gt;
A dead cat is more dear for me than You, as you are, big, hot, well-educated and zealous.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://s48.radikal.ru/i120/0907/d9/611f74a34414.gif" alt="" title=""&gt;&lt;br&gt;
And any nestling on the palm of my hand is more dear for me than Your God.&lt;br&gt;
A greenie here… What wonder?&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/766/3712766_182505cd5d_m.jpg" alt="02c"&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/07/25/greenness-6583236/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>musing</category><category>cats</category><category>summer</category><category>sun</category><category>july</category><category>kitten</category><category>erotic</category><category>sex</category><category>greenie</category><category>poem</category><category>kitty</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/07/25/greenness-6583236/#comments</comments></item><item><title>artline</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/07/01/artline-6428716/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-07-01:/2009/07/01/artline-6428716/</guid><pubDate>Wed, 01 Jul 2009 02:12:24 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;Jan Vermeer (1632-1675) a Dutch Baroque painter who “specialized in exquisite, domestic interior scenes of middle class life”. The light, colours, interiors, details and air in his paintings thrill me.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/624/3645624_2e19182db9_m.jpg" alt="003"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/625/3645625_5a6bc04ea0_m.jpg" alt="023"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;(collage)&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/626/3645626_c6106e7b08_m.jpg" alt="450"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/243/3610243_8aa5063646_m.jpg" alt="0_70"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
A horse, a child, pet dogs--a woman cannot desire for more. &lt;img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I’d like to recommend one more artist, who is more famous, Valentin Serov (1865-1911).&lt;br&gt;
This is his portrait of the last Russian Tsar:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/573/2665573_c9b7ca2c86_m.jpg" alt="Nikolay_II"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;and his portrait of Princess Orloff in silks and sables (a “high society mere whore”, as some her contemporaries said):&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/244/3610244_6ae3213fac_m.jpg" alt="0s"&gt;
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/19/more-paintings-6339542/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>paintings</category><category>briullov</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/19/more-paintings-6339542/#comments</comments></item><item><title>the summertime art catalog</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/12/the-summertime-art-catalog-6286851/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-06-12:/2009/06/12/the-summertime-art-catalog-6286851/</guid><pubDate>Fri, 12 Jun 2009 04:14:48 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/843/3588843_cd78ac20eb_m.jpg" alt="ru_noon2"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
The vine loves the sun. Beauty of these female images is obviously Mediterranean. Its perfection and originality seem timeless. The artist’s notion of beauty seems to be in concordance with that of the ancients, therefore we can imagine that the sunshine, which we can see in these pictures, is that of ancient times, which in some miraculous way has reached our eye in the 21st  century. However, is the way so miraculous? We, the 21st century viewers can see it through the 19th century artist’s insight. Artist: Karl Briullov&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/844/3588844_3e3065d8a8_m.jpg" alt="grape2"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/842/3588842_bac6f3c8fb_m.jpg" alt="ru_2"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Personally I hate the sun of summer days, and the Sun god is not kind to me either. But the question is not me now.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/840/3588840_a003424c68_m.jpg" alt="p2big"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Come to see the sun tatting-clad everyday life of Laurent Parcelier:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://laurentparceliercollection.com/"&gt;http://laurentparceliercollection.com/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/12/the-summertime-art-catalog-6286851/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>beauty</category><category>essay</category><category>art</category><category>painting</category><category>sun</category><category>parcelier</category><category>summer</category><category>grapes</category><category>aesthete</category><category>novel</category><category>story</category><category>books</category><category>literature</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/12/the-summertime-art-catalog-6286851/#comments</comments></item><item><title>visual impression</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/04/visual-impression-6233747/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-06-04:/2009/06/04/visual-impression-6233747/</guid><pubDate>Thu, 04 Jun 2009 06:47:31 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/411/3564411_ac9d1080b9_m.jpg" alt="0ss" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;Sir Anthony van Dyck. Lord John and Lord Bernard Stuart (c. 1638)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;loving long-haired men, though a man’s long hair tells about nothing but the man’s love for his own long hair.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/410/3564410_06cb8641f3_m.jpg" alt="0k" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;Sir Anthony van Dyck. Thomas Killigrew and (?) William, Lord Croft (1638)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Does anybody love men with shaven heads?&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/413/3564413_4f5aadf72a_m.jpg" alt="r" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;my 'read' shelf:&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/review/list/1723370&amp;shelf=read"&gt;&lt;img border="0" alt=" my read shelf" src="http://www.goodreads.com/images/badge/badge1.jpg"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
&lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/1723370-lara-biuts"&gt;Lara's favorite quotes&lt;/a&gt;
	"Yes, the objective form is the most subjective in manner. Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he will tell you the truth."&amp;mdash; &lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/3565.Oscar_Wilde" title="view all quotes by Oscar Wilde"&gt;Oscar Wilde&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/04/visual-impression-6233747/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>beauty</category><category>painting</category><category>blogging</category><category>hair</category><category>life</category><category>books</category><category>art</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/04/visual-impression-6233747/#comments</comments></item><item><title>illustrations</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/02/illustrations-6216985/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-06-02:/2009/06/02/illustrations-6216985/</guid><pubDate>Tue, 02 Jun 2009 01:45:23 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;This is the very by-street, where I was attacked by the raven, mentioned in my story:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/07/17/the-dead-season-4459369/"&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/07/17/the-dead-season-4459369/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/603/3558603_687e6828db_m.jpg" alt="06r3" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
and thi is the very place--&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/604/3558604_468dd45336_m.jpg" alt="05r2" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
The old sunlit poplars, which we can see in the pictures, which have survived since the old times, and which produce the deep pleasant shade, make me remember one poem--&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;The Poplar&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;br&gt;
By &lt;strong&gt;Vladimir Nabokov&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Before this house a poplar grows&lt;br&gt;
Well versed in dowsing, I suppose,&lt;br&gt;
But how it sighs! And every night&lt;br&gt;
A boy in black, a girl in white&lt;br&gt;
Beyond the brightness of my bed&lt;br&gt;
Appear, and not a word is said.&lt;br&gt;
On coated chair and coatless chair&lt;br&gt;
They sit, one here, the other there.&lt;br&gt;
I do not care to make scene:&lt;br&gt;
I read a glossy magazine.&lt;br&gt;
He props upon his slender knee&lt;br&gt;
A dwarfed and potted poplar tree.&lt;br&gt;
And she--she seems to hold a dim&lt;br&gt;
Hand mirror with an ivory rim&lt;br&gt;
Framing a lawn, and her, and me&lt;br&gt;
Under the prototypic tree,&lt;br&gt;
Before the pillared porch, last seen&lt;br&gt;
In July, nineteen seventeen.&lt;br&gt;
This is the silver lining of&lt;br&gt;
Pathetic fallacies: the sough&lt;br&gt;
Of Populus that taps at last&lt;br&gt;
Not water but the author’s past.&lt;br&gt;
And note: nothing is ever said.&lt;br&gt;
I read a magazine in bed&lt;br&gt;
Or the Home Book of Verse; and note:&lt;br&gt;
This is my shirt, that is my coat.&lt;br&gt;
But frailer seers I am told&lt;br&gt;
Get up to rearrange a fold.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;1952&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The poem above refers to more poems by VN written in English. This is one of them:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Rain&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;br&gt;
By &lt;strong&gt;Vladimir Nabokov&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;How mobile is the bed on these&lt;br&gt;
nights of gesticulating trees&lt;br&gt;
when the rain clatters fast,&lt;br&gt;
the tin-toy rain with  dapper hoof&lt;br&gt;
trotting upon an endless roof,&lt;br&gt;
travelling into the past.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Upon old roads the steeds of rain&lt;br&gt;
slip and slow down and speed again&lt;br&gt;
through many a tangled year;&lt;br&gt;
but they can  never reach the last&lt;br&gt;
dip at the bottom of the past&lt;br&gt;
because the sun is there.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;1956&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The printed source of VN poetry, which I used, well may have some misprints, so if anybody has more exact text of this last poem, please let me know.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;JUNE 2 – Nabokov’s death day (1977).&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/02/illustrations-6216985/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>life</category><category>poem</category><category>nabokov</category><category>june</category><category>summer</category><category>love</category><category>essay</category><category>story</category><category>past</category><category>sun</category><category>photo</category><category>trees</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/06/02/illustrations-6216985/#comments</comments></item><item><title>imagery</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/05/23/imagery-6160346/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-05-23:/2009/05/23/imagery-6160346/</guid><pubDate>Sat, 23 May 2009 01:02:46 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/955/3529955_ac1691fcd0_m.jpg" alt="collage" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Skype is the only msn I have. New to it, I never happened to use it, so waiting for an opportunity to do it. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;.•*´¨`*•.bizz.•*´¨`*•.&lt;br&gt;
(¯`v´¯)&lt;br&gt;
.`•.¸.•´&lt;br&gt;
¸.•´¸. •´¨) ¸.•*¨)&lt;br&gt;
(¸.•´ (¸.•´ .•´ ¸¸.•¨¯`•...♥...Lara…&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*gallop polling&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
As we know, the Sheriff of Nottingham appears in the RoS serials, being bearded and with moustache and beardless but with moustache. Plz vote--&lt;br&gt;
the Sheriff looks nicer with--&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;1)the moustache and beard&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/957/3529957_e2dcb28879_m.jpg" alt="0s" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;2)the moustache only.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/956/3529956_843645f2ee_m.jpg" alt="s" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;(For my part, I vote for the moustache only, bearding any beard in general.)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;one more questionnaire:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/11/20/most-wonderful-time-of-a-year-great-expectations-5065957/"&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/11/20/most-wonderful-time-of-a-year-great-expectations-5065957/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;My collected essays The Jetsam has been published on the Authonomy website:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.authonomy.com/ViewBook.aspx?bookid=8178"&gt;http://www.authonomy.com/ViewBook.aspx?bookid=8178&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Also, on the Authonomy website, I’ve uploaded a chapter from Volume 2 of my novel La Lune Blanche as a book:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.authonomy.com/ViewBook.aspx?bookid=8638"&gt;http://www.authonomy.com/ViewBook.aspx?bookid=8638&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/05/23/imagery-6160346/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>writing</category><category>pictures</category><category>books</category><category>life</category><category>sheriff</category><category>art</category><category>beauty</category><category>aesthete</category><category>skype</category><category>pix</category><category>love</category><category>movie</category><category>blogging</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/05/23/imagery-6160346/#comments</comments></item><item><title>writing art gallery</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/05/12/writing-art-gallery-6100594/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-05-12:/2009/05/12/writing-art-gallery-6100594/</guid><pubDate>Tue, 12 May 2009 07:00:46 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;Sheriff of Nottingham the Writer--&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/010/3498010_1c6b138f70_m.jpg" alt="sheriff_writer" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
and his not so distant predecessors--&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/011/3498011_63073f0b41_m.jpg" alt="a1" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/012/3498012_d7849910fe_m.jpg" alt="a2" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;my 'read' shelf:&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/review/list/1723370&amp;shelf=read"&gt;&lt;img border="0" alt=" my read shelf" src="http://www.goodreads.com/images/badge/badge1.jpg"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
&lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/1723370-lara-biuts"&gt;Lara's favorite quotes&lt;/a&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
"Yes, the objective form is the most subjective in manner. Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he will tell you the truth."&amp;mdash; &lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/3565.Oscar_Wilde" title="view all quotes by Oscar Wilde"&gt;Oscar Wilde&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
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&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/989/3497989_92ffc92093_m.jpg" alt="latonnelledeglycine" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/05/12/shade-and-light-of-his-pictures-6100513/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>parcelier</category><category>art</category><category>beauty</category><category>sun</category><category>painting</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/05/12/shade-and-light-of-his-pictures-6100513/#comments</comments></item><item><title>one more tale of Shahrazad</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/05/01/one-more-tale-of-shahrazad-6038067/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-05-01:/2009/05/01/one-more-tale-of-shahrazad-6038067/</guid><pubDate>Fri, 01 May 2009 01:10:21 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/663/3462663_07090a2623_m.jpg" alt="boy_c" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I produce collages from time to time, simple pictures, doing it to the best of my abilities, like this:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/664/3462664_ff08e40ca1_m.jpg" alt="collage_4brocade" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
The bust below in the picture above is a portrait of Petronius according to the information, which I found on one website. Also today, I present one collage which is not mine, and which is a brilliant work of one artist who is no more:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/387/3460387_fd38cd1c3a_m.jpg" alt="c" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Author of the collage is Sergei Parajanov (1924-1990), a Soviet Armenian film director and artist, widely regarded as one of the 20th century's greatest masters of cinema.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/4/4e/Parajanov.jpg"&gt;http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/4/4e/Parajanov.jpg&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Retelling the article on Wikipedia, I can say the following. Making the movie Shadows of Forgotten Ancestors (beautiful name, isn’t it?) which was renamed Wild Horses of Fire for most foreign distributions, Parajanov had become something of an international celebrity and simultaneously a target of attacks from the system of his native country. Cinema authorities regularly denied him permission to make films, almost without discussion until he was finally arrested in late 1973 on trumped-up charges of rape, homosexuality and bribery. Even now, nobody can know for certain whether he was guilty or not, whether he was accused fairly or not, since you never knew with the Soviet justice of those times. The soviets could simply invent a man’s guilt, forging facts, in order to kill the man, and I can’t say that he was homosexual indeed, since I can’t know of it (though it is known that in 1948 he was convicted of homosexual acts in Tbilisi; he was sentenced to 5 years in prison, but was amnestied after being incarcerated for 3 months.) Being condemned and imprisoned as homosexual for several years, he was to go through the hell, but he didn’t; he survived, since his art helped him. He made portraits of his prison-mates, which helped him to earn their sympathy. He was imprisoned until 1977, despite plethora of pleas for pardon from various esteemed artists. Parajanov served four years out of his five year sentence, and later credited his early release to the efforts of the French Surrealist poet and novelist Louis Aragon, and the American writer John Updike.&lt;br&gt;
Even after release (he was yet to be arrested for the third and last time in 1982) he was persona non grata in Soviet cinema. It was not until mid-80's, when political climate started to supple, that he could resume directing. Still, it required help of influential Georgian actor David (Dodo) Abashidze and other friends to have his last feature films green-lighted.&lt;br&gt;
His health seriously weakened by 4 years in labor camps and 9 months in Tbilisi prison, Parajanov died of lung cancer in 1990, at the time when, after almost 20 years of suppression, his films were finally again allowed to be featured in foreign film festivals. As one critic remarked: Paradjanov made films not about how things are, but how they would have been had he been God."&lt;br&gt;
He was married two times and had a son. When he died, such luminaries as Federico Fellini, Tonino Guerra, Francesco Rosi, Alberto Moravia, Giulietta Masina, Marcello Mastroianni and Bernardo Bertolucci were among those who publicly mourned his passing. In a telegram that came to Russia: "The world of cinema has lost a magician".&lt;br&gt;
Personally I knew of the story of his life when I was a teenager, when listening to the Voice of America (from Washington DC) as well as Radio Liberty and BBC world service. The collage above is one of his brilliant works, recently displayed in Ukraine.&lt;br&gt;
I regard the picture as a good cover for my book.&lt;br&gt;
This is the original picture, Pinturicchio "Portrait of a boy":&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/386/3460386_5131d76a2e_m.jpg" alt="a_boy" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;=====&lt;br&gt;
Announcement:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;strong&gt;A chapter from my everlasting romance La Lune Blanche (Volume 2) has been published on the Authonomy books and writing website:&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.authonomy.com/ViewBook.aspx?bookid=8638"&gt;http://www.authonomy.com/ViewBook.aspx?bookid=8638&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/04/01/my-one-year-anniversary-on-the-website-3978411/"&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/04/01/my-one-year-anniversary-on-the-website-3978411/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*the longest novels ever written&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
The 19th century German short-story writer E.T.A. Hoffmann wrote the first German-language detective story Das Fräulein von Scuderi (Mademoiselle Scudéry), featuring the French writer Madeleine de Scudéry (1607-1701), often known as Mademoiselle de Scudéry, as the central figure of his story. By the by, one of her novels Artamène, which contains about 2.1 million words, ranks as one of the longest novels ever written. Could anybody tell whether the novel may be reckoned the first of the sort?&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;my 'read' shelf:&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/review/list/1723370&amp;shelf=read"&gt;&lt;img border="0" alt=" my read shelf" src="http://www.goodreads.com/images/badge/badge1.jpg"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
&lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/1723370-lara-biuts"&gt;Lara's favorite quotes&lt;/a&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
"Yes, the objective form is the most subjective in manner. Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he will tell you the truth."&amp;mdash; &lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/3565.Oscar_Wilde" title="view all quotes by Oscar Wilde"&gt;Oscar Wilde&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
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	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*Oops…&lt;/strong&gt;* And I deemed I was a well-educated person! One amazing discovery evoked this exclamation, the discovery, which I was stunned by, recently on the Net. However, I should begin telling about it from afar. The point is that long ago I’ve begun searching for celebrities (writers, artists, musicians) who were born on the 26th of July that is my birthday. The wish is quite natural, isn’t it? I read diaries memoires and biographies, but in vain. Only the Internet helped me eventually. Using Wikipedia, I found some, and the most famous celebrities were Carl Jung (1875-1961),  George Bernard Shaw (1856-1950) Irish writer, Nobel Laureate and Oscar Wilde's contemporary, Mick Jagger (b. 1943),  which was not much, I would say, not enough and not what could catch my fancy. Now, searching details for the Goodreads website recently, I stumbled upon the date of birth of one writer whose two books fascinated me ten years ago, and who was an outstanding researcher and non-fiction writer: Nina Berberova (1901–1993), Russian-born emigre writer, professor of Russian literature at Princeton, author of the books The Italics Are Mine, Moura: The Dangerous Life of the Baroness Budberg,  The Ladies from St. Petersburg, The Tattered Cloak, The Book of Happiness, The Accompanist, and who was one of few persons who was nice to Vladimir Nabokov at the Berlin period of his life. It turns out that she was born on the 26th of July, but I either did not know of it or this slipped from my memory in some extraordinary way. The latter is for wonder, since a half-dozen of facts and details of her life, which I have learnt from her biography, amazingly corresponded to those of mine, and her attitude towards research and historical facts was always a paradigm for me. In short, I always loved her and her writings, and yet I did not know that she was born on the 26th of July, or I’ve simply forgotten. Something supernatural I see in the fact. Maybe, I was too much fascinated by the impressive image of her Moura?&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/077/3405077_a5011b8a51_m.jpg" alt="mb" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt; Maybe, Wikipedia did not give me enough info of persons born on the 26th of July? But there were the books which I read ten years back! Maybe, it’s too much online information of other sorts? It’s my supernatural absentmindedness? Perhaps, there was something in the past that made me forget of any details of her biography but her writings? All together, most probably. However that may be, today, I am thrilled to announce that I’ve found the celebrity, who was born on the same day with me--&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/874/3401874_1e24a10353_m.jpg" alt="berberova" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
--read on Nina Berberova:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nina_Berberova"&gt;http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nina_Berberova&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*time for reminiscence&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
Oops again, and oddly enough, now I can’t recall when I learnt of homosexual relationship; I only remember that when aged 19 I knew nothing of this kind of love--no information on the subject, no sexual experience. True, I felt and suspected of the existence of a special tenderness, and maybe I met its traces in reality, maybe, but I knew nothing of it and was never told about it. At the age of 19 I began to verse again, after a long pause, or more truly, began to write doggerels again, and one day, among the works of the French writer Honore de Balzac, which I borrowed from the library, I met the story entitled “The Girl with the Golden Eyes”:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.gutenberg.org/files/1659/1659.txt"&gt;http://www.gutenberg.org/files/1659/1659.txt&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
It was an entertaining story, which I read with great interest, yet for the first time in my adult life I did not quite understand what I read about, like it was in my childhood, when I read some adult fiction, which I shouldn’t do.  The novelette The Girl with the Golden Eyes was a mysterious story, a criminal drama full of reservations, meaningful hints and even suspense, and its end I could not understand. Why did that French lady kill the girl with the golden eyes? I reread the final part one more time, then again and again, but in vain. Suspecting that there was something subtle, complicated and forbidden in the plot, I did not understand the passions that overwhelmed the personages. It was so then. Now, in the late 1990s (being computerless in those times), I could afford leaving my work for ever, and at the same time I’ve got an access to a great amount of the books, which I was never able to read before. And then, having spent two years reading detective stories and other pulp fiction (as well as unknown classic books), I recalled of the only story by Balzac that remained an enigma to me. Apparently in the 1990s I’ve learnt some information about what was obscure to me formerly, so I understood the story completely as soon as I reread it. The cause of the murder was jealousy--I guessed right instantly--the lady was jealous of the girl with the golden eyes to one young man, who proved to be the lady’s own brother whom she saw never before and found suddenly. The brother was a young man of fashion and fiendish person, whose beautiful features bore a striking resemblance with his sister’s. I instantly understood the nature of the jealousy, and that meant that I knew of homosexual relationship at that moment, but the first information of my “new lore” slipped my memory. Something supernatural is in this, if you like, and this proves that it was only a piece of information and not an experience, which a human could remember much better.&lt;br&gt;
P. S.&lt;br&gt;
The reminiscence, mentioned above, was written and published in my blog in 2007. Some time passed since then, and now I know what it was. I’ve remembered the piece of information. Believe it or not, but my source was the radio BBC world service.  &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*from To Read List&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
 Ronald Firbank (1886-1926), the late Victorian writer, younger contemporary of Oscar Wilde:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.glbtq.com/literature/firbank_r.html"&gt;http://www.glbtq.com/literature/firbank_r.html&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Lady Parvula de Panzoust in Firbank’s Valmouth says that "None but those whose courage is unquestionable can venture to be effeminate."&lt;br&gt;
Evelyn Waugh in his Brideshead Revisited says about his Anthony Blanche: “At the age of fifteen, for a wager, he was disguised as a  girl and taken to play at the big table in the Jockey Club at Buenos Aires;  he dined with Proust  and Gide and was  on closer  terms with Cocteau and Diaghilev; Firbank sent him his novels with fervent inscriptions; he  had aroused three irreconcilable feuds in Capri; he had practised  black art in Cefalu; he had been cured of drug-taking in California and of an Edipus complex in Vienna.”&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*The Importance of Being Wilde:&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.lexscripta.com/articles/wilde4.html"&gt;http://www.lexscripta.com/articles/wilde4.html&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*The Oscar Wilde collection:&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.oscarwildecollection.com/"&gt;http://www.oscarwildecollection.com/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*plea for help&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
I still have not a photo of Alfred Taylor… The online encyclopedia of gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender &amp; queer culture says about him: "The only hero of the Wilde trials was the procurer Alfred Taylor, who loyally refused to testify against his client and consequently shared his harsh punishment.”&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/876/3401876_5dd0f6ed5e_m.gif" alt="9" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;
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&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/04/12/olio-5928843/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>boys</category><category>history</category><category>story</category><category>mystique</category><category>pagan</category><category>la-magie-blanche</category><category>berberova</category><category>author</category><category>musings</category><category>poems</category><category>aesthete</category><category>beauty</category><category>books</category><category>poesy</category><category>creative-writing</category><category>prose</category><category>cats</category><category>enjoyment</category><category>literature</category><category>essay</category><category>moura</category><category>novel</category><category>writer</category><category>poet</category><category>oscar-wilde</category><category>art</category><category>blogging</category><category>quotation</category><category>gods</category><category>fun</category><category>love</category><category>mystic</category><category>blog</category><category>good-books</category><category>life</category><category>writing</category><category>la-lune-blanche</category><category>book-about-men</category><category>poetry</category><category>gay</category><category>quote</category><category>fiction</category><category>pleasure</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/04/12/olio-5928843/#comments</comments></item><item><title>one more vampire</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/03/31/one-more-vampire-5862882/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-03-31:/2009/03/31/one-more-vampire-5862882/</guid><pubDate>Tue, 31 Mar 2009 02:48:33 +0200</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;In this note, with the aid of some quotes from the book A rebours (Against the Grain or Against Nature, 1884, the book, which Oscar Wilde loved) by Joris-Karl Huysmans (1848–1907), I’ll try to prove that the main character of the novel is a vampire or something of the kind as a person who definitely lives a nocturnal life.&lt;br&gt;
He lives a life of a nocturnal thing, after “a deep silence wrapped the little house that lay asleep in the darkness.” His first meal he has in the evening:&lt;br&gt;
“At five o'clock in winter, after dusk had closed in, he ate an abstemious breakfast of two boiled eggs, toast and tea; then came dinner at eleven; he used to drink coffee, sometimes tea or wine, during the night, and finally played with a bit of supper about five in the morning, before turning in.”&lt;br&gt;
The windows are designed in some odd way in order that the daylight could not penetrate the rooms freely:&lt;br&gt;
“The dining-room in question resembled a ship's cabin with its wooden ceiling of arched beams, its bulkheads and flooring of pitch-pine, its tiny window-opening cut through the woodwork as a porthole is in a vessel's side.&lt;br&gt;
Like those Japanese boxes that fit one inside the other, this room was inserted within a larger one,--the real dining-room as designed by the architect.&lt;br&gt;
This latter apartment was provided with two windows; one of these was now invisible, being hidden by the bulkhead or partition wall, which could however be dropped by touching a spring, so that fresh air might be admitted to circulate freely around and within the pitch-pine enclosure; the other was visible, being situated right opposite the porthole contrived in the woodwork, but was masked in a peculiar way, a large aquarium filling in the whole space intervening between the porthole and the real window in the real house-wall. Thus the daylight that penetrated into the cabin had first to pass through the outer window, the panes of which had been replaced by a single sheet of plain mirror glass, then through the water and last of all through the glazing of the porthole, which was permanently fixed in its place.&lt;br&gt;
At the hour when the steaming samovar stood on the table, the moment when in Autumn the sun would be setting in the west, the water in the aquarium, dull and opaque by daylight, would redden and throw out fiery flashes as if from a glowing furnace over the light-coloured walls.”&lt;br&gt;
Even the moonlight cannot penetrate the rooms unless through the bottle-glass:&lt;br&gt;
 “Outside the snow was falling. In the lamplight, ice arabesques glittered on the dark windows and the hoar-frost sparkled like crystals of sugar on the bottle-glass panes speckled with gold.”&lt;br&gt;
He hates how nature looks by daylight:&lt;br&gt;
“As he used to say, Nature has had her day; she has definitely and finally tired out by the sickening monotony of her landscapes and skyscapes the patience of refined temperaments. When all is said and done, what a narrow, vulgar affair it all is, like a petty shopkeeper selling one article of goods to the exclusion of all others; what a tiresome store of green fields and leafy trees, what a wearisome commonplace collection of mountains and seas!”&lt;br&gt;
which is absolutely wrong, if you ask me.&lt;br&gt;
Thus, we can see that the hero’s habits, loathings and likings look much like a vampire’s.&lt;br&gt;
If a vampire, then a vampire-aesthete:&lt;br&gt;
“…a single book, bound in sea-green morocco, the "Adventures of Arthur Gordon Pym," specially printed for his behoof on pure linen-laid paper, hand picked, bearing a sea-gull for water mark.”&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;my 'read' shelf:&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/review/list/1723370&amp;shelf=read"&gt;&lt;img border="0" alt=" my read shelf" src="http://www.goodreads.com/images/badge/badge1.jpg"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
&lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/1723370-lara-biuts"&gt;Lara's favorite quotes&lt;/a&gt;
&lt;br&gt;
"Yes, the objective form is the most subjective in manner. Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he will tell you the truth."&amp;mdash; &lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/3565.Oscar_Wilde" title="view all quotes by Oscar Wilde"&gt;Oscar Wilde&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	
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I cross the river of dreams.&lt;br&gt;
What a long bridge it is!&lt;br&gt;
Like a sliver,&lt;br&gt;
life is carried away by the river&lt;br&gt;
under the bridge.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Lara Biuts © 2009&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*flowing the quill…&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
The reader can see something familiar, reading my notes at the &lt;strong&gt;Goodreads&lt;/strong&gt; website, but something is new or edited:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.goodreads.com/story/list/1723370"&gt;http://www.goodreads.com/story/list/1723370&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
"There she weaves by night and day&lt;br&gt;
A magic web of colors gay."&lt;br&gt;
 (Alfred Lord Tennyson)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt; &lt;strong&gt;*Late at Night&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
Look there--&lt;br&gt;
leaving Athena’s shoulder,&lt;br&gt;
flying down from Olympus,&lt;br&gt;
the wise owl with expanded wings&lt;br&gt;
solemnly crowns the top of cedar.&lt;br&gt;
The owl is lacking for a swan’s grace,&lt;br&gt;
but the keen and golden eyes&lt;br&gt;
read all the books of darkness&lt;br&gt;
in the still of night…&lt;br&gt;
The owls, night butterflies among the birds.&lt;br&gt;
The cobwebs of imagination--and white bunny.&lt;br&gt;
A  ladybug upon a whitethorn leaf.&lt;br&gt;
A flush is like a flight of arrows&lt;br&gt;
from Eros’s bow.&lt;br&gt;
The bow is life as well as death:&lt;br&gt;
now Eros’s bow, now Ares’s.&lt;br&gt;
The bow of Eros--and the curve of time.&lt;br&gt;
And final unexpected twist in plot.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Lara Biuts © 2009&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Squeals and snorts of delight:&lt;/strong&gt; Lately, I read an article on the great Greek king Mithradates Eupator. “Although he died at Panticapaeum, it is the town of Eupatoria in Crimea that commemorates his name,” but wait… I spent two summer holidays in Eupatoria when I was a schoolgirl. (I went there being attended, of course.) Hurray! I happened to visit one of Greek colonies of antiquity on the Black Sea coast (as I know now)! &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*quotes&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
“We shall find peace. We shall hear angels, we shall see the sky sparkling with diamonds.” (Chekhov)&lt;br&gt;
“I shall find peace. I shall hear the sea-waves noise; I shall see the sky sparkling with diamonds.” (Lara Biuts)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*quote&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
“I don’t want to talk about the things we’ve gone through. Although it hurts me, now it’s history. I've played all my cards. That's what you have done too. Nothing more to say. No more ace to play. The winner takes it all. The loser standing small. Beside the victory--that's all my destiny. The gods may throw a dice. Minds as cold as ice. And someone way down here. Loses someone dear. The winner takes it all. The loser has to fall. It's simple and it's plain--so why should I complain? The judges will decide. The likes of me abide. Spectators of the show always staying low. The game is on again--a lover or a friend--a big thing or a small--the winner takes it all.” (from lyrics, ABBA)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*plea for help &lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
I am searching for one image. Could anybody help me to find the painting entitled Portrait of Lord Arthur Atherley? Details: Artist is either Reynolds or Reynolds’ contemporary British artist. Years back, I saw the image, reading one magazine. The painting’s location was an art gallery in Los Angeles, when I first saw it.  It was years back, and I instantly fell in love with the image. A young man wearing red frock-coat, which looked much like a jacket for riding; gray trousers; white tie; one of his hands is ungloved. He has long brown locks, angel-like face, and his duel eye aimed at the viewer. The young man looks like having dismounted his horse but just, I would say. As far as I can remember, the full title of the picture is Portrait of Lord Arthur Atherley as an Etonian.&lt;br&gt;
Please, help me to find him, for I still feel in love with him!&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;P. S. 5 minutes later. My plea for help has been heard! (on other website) Portrait of Arthur Atherley as an Etonian, by Thomas Lawrence--here it is:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/638/3356638_1775ffc19a_m.jpg" alt="7_" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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Pythagoreans hymn the sunrise. Artist: Fyodor  Bronnikov&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/640/3335640_f3c8ea7845_m.jpg" alt="herma" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Consecration of the Herma. Artist: Fyodor Bronnikov&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/639/3335639_8b1225f582_m.jpg" alt="_genius" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Genius of Fine Arts. Artist: Karl Briullov&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/638/3335638_cc63362ea5_m.jpg" alt="a_" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Greek Warriors Dancing. Artist: Alma-Tadema
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&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/165/3295165_1d305ed8e4_m.jpg" alt="03l" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
I love my laptop. It is my dear boy. He has to have a given name. As soon as I invent a good name for him, I’ll get married to him… Wait a moment… His name is--MyDove!&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;More pictures on my Flickr page:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://flickr.com/photos/deajuly/"&gt;http://flickr.com/photos/deajuly/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;My book:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB.htm"&gt;http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB.htm&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB2.htm"&gt;http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB2.htm&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB3.htm"&gt;http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB3.htm&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;My collected essays on WordPress:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://larajuly.wordpress.com/2009/03/07/la-ra/"&gt;http://larajuly.wordpress.com/2009/03/07/la-ra/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*Preface&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
In his life, Anton Chekhov was often accused of the “unnatural sin”, which his contemporaries regarded as deadly, namely, most of his works as though were “lacking both principles and ideas”. As his readers, we can judge, whether it is so or not. As I think, if it is so, then that’s the beauty of his art. At the same time, this accusation sounds odd for us, who from our school days knew of the fact that Chekhov was a lifelong bearer of most sublime ideals. But for the Russian press of his time, which was largely “progressive” that is “red”, he was a decadent. That’s all right, I would say, let him be. And so, even this blatant decadent, in 1892, when he read the book My Diary by Marie Bashkirtseff, never found any kind words for his response, but he expressed his negative attitude to the book in his Letters, forgetting mercy and humanism of his first profession and calling the author, who died young, “egocentric”.&lt;br&gt;
Today, Revue_Blanche presents&lt;br&gt;
one more forgotten figure of the European decadence&lt;br&gt;
one more Oscar Wilde’s contemporary, whose life showed her professing Oscar Wilde’s individualism and devotion to art--&lt;br&gt;
meet--&lt;br&gt;
Marie Bashkirtseff&lt;br&gt;
(November 11, 1858 - October 31, 1884), an Ukrainian-born Russian painter and sculptor. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;From Wikipedia:&lt;br&gt;
Born to a wealthy noble family, Marie Bashkirtseff (Maria Bashkirtseva) grew up abroad, traveling with her mother across most of Europe. From the age of 13, she began keeping a journal.&lt;br&gt;
Titled, I Am the Most Interesting Book of All, her popular diary is still in print today.&lt;br&gt;
In 1881, using the nom de plume "Pauline Orrel," she wrote several articles for Hubertine Auclert's feminist newspaper, La Citoyenne.&lt;br&gt;
Her letters, consisting of her correspondence with the writer Guy de Maupassant, were published in 1891.&lt;br&gt;
Unfortunately, a large number of Bashkirtseff's paintings were destroyed by the Nazis during World War II.&lt;br&gt;
She died of tuberculosis at the age of 25. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Her most famous motto: “Nothing before me. Nothing after me. Nothing but me.”&lt;br&gt;
There was some confusion concerning the date of her birth, and there is what she wrote about her real age in her Diary: “It's horrifying just to write it, but I console myself by thinking that I certainly will not have any age when you read me.”&lt;br&gt;
Visiting her grave in Cimetière de Passy, Paris, Guy de Maupassant said: “She was the only Rose in my life, whose way I would strew with roses, if only I knew the way was to be so short and bright.”&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Bibliography :&lt;br&gt;
Bashkirtseff, Marie "Mon journal", volumes I-XVI; texte intégral transcrit par Ginette Apostolescu. - Montesson (5 rue Jean-Claude-Bézanier, 78360 ) : Cercle des amis de Marie Bashkirtseff, 2005 (Paris : Impr. diff. graphique). - 1 vol. (326 p.) ; 21 cm. Index. - DLE-20051207-57368. - 848.803 oeuvre (21) . - ISBN 2-9518398-5-5 (br.) : 22 EUR. - EAN 9782951839854.&lt;br&gt;
"I Am the Most Interesting Book of All: The Diary of Marie Bashkirtseff" (English translation by Phyllis Howard Kernberger, Katherine Kernberger) ISBN-10: 0811802248, ISBN-13: 978-0811802246, Publisher: Chronicle Books (June 1, 1997)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/200/3276200_2c76f0d96b_m.jpg" alt="MBau" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Her landscape which I love. Autumn in Paris. One day like this, in Paris, Oscar Wilde met his last birthday. The trees in the alley look like they looked when Wilde walked there, visiting Paris in the 1880s and 1890s.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/201/3276201_c8751d523b_m.jpg" alt="MBMast" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
One of her paintings.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/202/3276202_b5de9ff254_m.jpg" alt="MBash1878" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Artist in 1878.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*Autumn in Springtime--Springtime in Autumn&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
“The autumn came so suddenly&lt;br&gt;
like death of Maria Bashkirtseva…”&lt;br&gt;
(from the Russian Silver Age poetry)&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;	The girl, the young artist, who died young , leaving  many paintings and many volumes of her diary. The Diary (in Russian, published in 1892) reflects mentality and aesthetic ideas of the late 19th century which formed later in the aestheticism of decadence. As her contemporaries said, her Diary was like beautiful brocade turned on the inner side.&lt;br&gt;
	She had everything in her life: wealth, luxury, adoration of her mother and grandfather. The estate of her family was famous with luxury and hospitality, and its area was greatest after the estate of Count Kotchoubay. But she hardly could remember her homeland Ukraine, since being aged 10 she was taken abroad because of her tender health by recommendation of her grandfather--aristocrat-anglophile, bibliophile and fine art connoisseur--who loved her so much. She also could not remember her father, since her parents got divorced, with her mother having won the case, which was a rarest thing in Russia in those times.&lt;br&gt;
	Marie spent her childhood, inhaling aroma of orchards in the South of France, and listening to noise of the sea at Cote d’Azur. Many sites of the old Europe, famous with their name, became native to her: Mentone, Rome, Nice, Paris, London. There were the numerous  concerts, plays, museums and paintings which she saw, appreciated and described in her famous, sensational (later, much later) Diary.  She lived seeing beauty every day, which gave her second wind.&lt;br&gt;
	The loneliness, the golden cage, the isolation, caused by the early diseases (the chronic laryngitis, which stole her beautiful voice and unique ear, and later the tuberculosis, which led her to the grave), however we call it, but it was obviously the power which helped to emerge all what was on the bottom of her heart. The thought of going out without trace worried her mind--“…the soul feels, loves, hates, desires. The soul alone makes us live. At the same time, a small wound of the perishable body, some inner disorder, some excess of wine or food, in some extraordinary way, is able to make the soul live the body.”  [from her Diary, translation is mine.--L.B.] Death and all what caused it was the question that disturbed her imagination always, however young she was. “When I die, people will read about my life which I find most remarkable (which cannot be otherwise). If I die suddenly, being snatched away by some disease… Maybe I’ll never know that I am in danger, for they’ll keep this from me. And after my death, they’ll find this diary in the drawers, and my family will read it, and then they destroy it, and soon nothing will remain after me--nothing, nothing, nothing! That’s what always horrified me! To live, to have the ambition like mine, to suffer, to cry, to fight, and finally--oblivion… oblivion--as though you never existed…” [from her Diary, translation is mine.--L.B.] Maybe, that was the reason why the desire to declare of herself and to develop her talents arose in the heart of the girl, who was surrounded by doctors and their advices as well as with the persistent guardianship of her relatives, the desire to develop gifts of music, singing, drawing and to conquer with their help. To conquer what? The world? Why not?&lt;br&gt;
	Many wrote about Bashkirtseva’s strong self-adoration, ambition and pride.  But as I think, there was something other. Like all outstanding persons, she quickly outgrew the level of the people, who surrounded her--let the people were so loving and devoted--and she began to live her own life, realizing that she was fated to loneliness.&lt;br&gt;
	“For of those to whom much is given, much is required” (Luke 12:48). Her falling-star-like life, short, bright and difficult, has proved this saying.&lt;br&gt;
	She never looked like a “blue stocking”. Her gifts and knowledge of literature, music, fine art, chemistry amazed her contemporaries, yet the brilliant entering life, the cascade of delightful perspectives ended so rapidly. The famous critic François Coppe emotionally describes the image of Marie B in the prime of her life and talent, several months before her death:&lt;br&gt;
	“At the moment, Mademoiselle Marie came in.  I saw her only once in my life, for an hour or so, but I’ll forget her never.  Aged 23, she looked younger. She was of mean stature, slim, with a perfect round face and golden hair. Her dark eyes were clever, burning with desire to see and know everything. Her lips expressed strength, looking kind and dreamy at the same time. Her nostrils moved like a wild horse’s. Mademoiselle Bashkirtseff produced uncommon impression at first glance, impression of a strong and tenderness, a latent energy and grace. All in the lovely girl revealed her sublime wit. Despite her female loveliness one felt her firm, purely masculine strength. To my congratulations, she replied in a melodious, pleasant voice, confessing, without prudery, in her proud designs, ambitions and desire for fame. We went upstairs to the studio in order to see other works. My curiosity led me to the darker part of the studio, where I could see volumes standing in thick rows on the shelves. There were all creations of human spirit, and all of them were in originals--French, English, German and ancient Greeks. Russians and Italians. And it was not books for display. Those were books that were read and reread, worn, studied. The open grand piano was beside. Marie’s beautiful hands played all musical authors…” “It was time to take a leave, but oddly enough, at the moments I felt a latent alarm, a fear--I don’t venture to say: a presentment. Seeing the pale, passionate girl, I imagined an uncommonly rich hothouse flower with a warm fragrance, and a secret inner voice as though whispered to me: ‘Too much at once!’ It was too much indeed.”&lt;br&gt;
	Let’s listen to the heroine of the essay herself, who had time to describe her own life so brilliantly. Her Diary, first published in French, in 1887, in Paris, caused a sensation. People were possessed by the Diary, were in raptures or renounced it, scorned at it and even doubted in its authenticity, but nobody, who read it, remained indifferent. The Diary is written so candidly, and perhaps this was a reason why it was castigated so furiously.  Apropos, in Russia the book has not been republished till 1999, and there was no one exhibition of her paintings, so only few people can know of her as a talented artist.&lt;br&gt;
	“It seems to me that nobody can love everything like I love,” Marie writes, “art, music, painting, books, noise, silence, laughter, sadness, languor, jokes, love, cold, the sun, any weather, every season, the plains of Russia and mountains surrounding Naples, the snow in winter, autumn with the rains, springtime with its anxiety, the quietude of summer days and the beautiful nights full of bright stars… I love it all, I adore it all. I want to see all, to embrace all, to have all, to merge with all!” And here is other phrase about her: “I am like a candle, cut in four, with all ends burning.”  And this person was accused of cold-bloodedness of her temper by virtue of the fact that she did not fall in love with a man but with the art, being determined to devote her entire life to it. Yes, it was so, otherwise how could the paintings (over 150) be created for a very short period? Those, who said that she had more masculine qualities than female ones, that she was cold as ice, never read her letters to Maupassant, which now are known only in fragments. A few words about this odd epistolary love affair. She never looked for a meeting or a date with the famous, 30-year-old writer, but her letters, talented, emotional, brilliant, written with free references to the ancient and modern authors, latently sensual, effeminate, witty, a little sad, touched Maupassant’s peccant and sophisticated mind, making his heart open. Charmed by the young Slav, he desired for new letters. In his own letters, sensual cynicism mixed with a deep-felt frankness and tenderness to Marie. Perhaps, in order to guard himself from the avalanche of tender feelings, which could overcome him, he wrote the cynically candid letter, which she decided to regard as offensive. Bashkirtseva replies him for the final time:&lt;br&gt;
	“You are not the one who I am looking for. But I am looking for nobody, for I believe that men must be only accessories in the life of strong women. You and I scarcely were made for each other.  You are not worth me, and I am so sorry for this. I’d love ever so much to have a man who I could talk with.”&lt;br&gt;
	The correspondence stopped, and all Maupassant’s attempts to begin it again were vain.&lt;br&gt;
	She was alone again. The golden cage of her loneliness shut, and she heard the key turning. She went into her shell, where there are music, painting and books. The book-fever possessed her. The thirst for new knowledge. Being determined to continue her study, she planned this, believing that her education was virtually chaotic and unsystematic. She began reading in Latin, French, English--5-6 books and a dozen newspapers a day. Ignoring the doctors’ advices, she played piano several hours a day--which was forbidden by doctors. She always ignored her own carnal weakness, never talking about her illness, despising a care about the carnal, jesting at her cough, and she agreed to cure her cough seriously, when it was too late.  She said that her dream was to give herself to painting entirely. It was the aim which was worth her. In 1877, in Paris, she entered the Académie Julian.&lt;br&gt;
	Professor Julian said about her: “I thought that it’s only a caprice of a spoilt child, but I have to say that she does work, that she has will, and she is talented. If it lasts, then in three months her drawings may be submitted to le Salon.” And her drawings were accepted.&lt;br&gt;
	It took her only 2 years to go through the 7-year course in the Academy. Half ill, she worked hard 12-14 hours a day, nearly spending night at the easel and canvas. Looking at her professional works, the teachers asked the beginner whether she made the pictures by herself or with somebody else’s help. There was a rumor in the Academy that most of her pictures were made by the artist Bastien-Lepage, the master of realistic landscapes, with whom the “possessed Russian” as though had love affair. Marie wrote in the Diary that as a teacher, Bastien-Lepage could not inspire too long, and that if she seemed to imitate Bastien-Lepage unwittingly in her art, then it was wrong.&lt;br&gt;
	A votaress of naturalism in art, she wrote about life, colours and hues, which were real and which sang. She won medals and prizes at exhibitions, she knew her lifetime Fame, but she never was tempted by it:  “I don’t feel a victorious joy, because the travail is the cost of my victory, and nothing unexpected is in it. I feel I am on the way to something more sublime and perfect, so all what have been created cannot satisfy me.” Indeed, she was on the way to the sublime, but it was to be heavenly and not earthly. The tuberculosis robbed her of last strength. She has to be lying up, interrupting her study--but in her last, incomplete picture we can see a young woman sitting on the grass in the sunlit garden in springtime.&lt;br&gt;
	She died on the rainy 31 of October, 1884.&lt;br&gt;
	Her legacy was the thousand page book and several canvases in the museums of Paris and Nice.  Her relatives took away the rest her pictures, and the pictures were destroyed in the beginning of WWII at bombing suburbs of Kiev. And yet her name did not pass into oblivion. The French government commissioned the statue of Immortality, and on the scroll, which Immortality hold in hands, her name was inscribed.&lt;br&gt;
	The disease robbed her of her voice; most of her paintings bunt down; the survived ones look so unimpressive--so why the name of the woman, who lived in the 19th century and died young, still has a sad, magical charm. Since her time, the fires of 200 great and small wars snatched away 100 or 200 million humans, nameless mostly. But the name of Maria Bashkirtseva has survived in our memory.&lt;br&gt;
	P. S.&lt;br&gt;
	Author of the blog is the only girl of Revue_Blanche, and the reader has to regard the image of Marie B as my spiritual predecessor. Why not an incarnation? Not complete though, with one difference: Marie B disliked cats in her life (“Men and cats do not deserve of living”).&lt;br&gt;
	P. P. S.&lt;br&gt;
	I am so glad, if this essay can help those who study Russian literature, though they cannot be many, of course, perhaps some students in China, no more, but I am glad anyway.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;with kind regards&lt;br&gt;
Lara Biuts&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;P. P. S. My collected essays entitled The Jetsam has been published on the Authonomy website:&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.authonomy.com/ViewBook.aspx?bookid=8178"&gt;http://www.authonomy.com/ViewBook.aspx?bookid=8178&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/03/01/the-springtime-vignette-5669457/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>la-magie-blanche</category><category>quotation</category><category>enjoyment</category><category>story</category><category>gods</category><category>art</category><category>author</category><category>novel</category><category>blogging</category><category>history</category><category>cats</category><category>mystic</category><category>boys</category><category>aesthete</category><category>love</category><category>beauty</category><category>good-books</category><category>literature</category><category>pagan</category><category>life</category><category>poetry</category><category>poems</category><category>mystique</category><category>creative-writing</category><category>musings</category><category>writer</category><category>fiction</category><category>poet</category><category>prose</category><category>books</category><category>quote</category><category>gay</category><category>oscar-wilde</category><category>poesy</category><category>book-about-men</category><category>essay</category><category>writing</category><category>pleasure</category><category>blog</category><category>fun</category><category>paintings</category><category>la-lune-blanche</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/03/01/the-springtime-vignette-5669457/#comments</comments></item><item><title>paintings</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/03/01/paintings-5669427/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-03-01:/2009/03/01/paintings-5669427/</guid><pubDate>Sun, 01 Mar 2009 02:15:41 +0100</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/ru_br/3276193" title="ru_br"&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/193/3276193_7cc92d6c75_m.jpg" alt="ru_br" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Narcissus, by Karl Briullov (1799–1852). The features of this Narcissus look much like the author’s or of one of the author’s brothers. Karl Briullov, called by his friends the Great Karl (1799–1852), was born in Saint Petersburg into a family of French artists: his great grandfather, his grandfather, his father and his brothers were artists.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/ru_v/3276192" title="ru_v"&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/192/3276192_400ecaa92c_m.jpg" alt="ru_v" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
I first saw this picture (above) years back, when reading our most popular magazine (under communists), but the image of this little boy could not catch my fancy, because in those times I looked for images and beauty of long-haired boys, and the shaven head and funny little cap of the boy could not seem nice to me, the young aesthete. Today, I regard the picture as an interesting historical document. Its author is a famous Russian battle painter and traveler V. V. Vereshchagin (1842–1904).  &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/ru_m/3276191" title="ru_m"&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/191/3276191_79657d87b5_m.jpg" alt="ru_m" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Artist: V. Borisov-Mousatov, 1895&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/03/01/paintings-5669427/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>paintings</category><category>author</category><category>blog</category><category>quotation</category><category>fiction</category><category>writing</category><category>essay</category><category>blogging</category><category>oscar-wilde</category><category>art</category><category>gay</category><category>mystique</category><category>gods</category><category>pagan</category><category>la-magie-blanche</category><category>fun</category><category>enjoyment</category><category>literature</category><category>book-about-men</category><category>writer</category><category>musings</category><category>poetry</category><category>creative-writing</category><category>boys</category><category>pleasure</category><category>beauty</category><category>novel</category><category>la-lune-blanche</category><category>prose</category><category>quote</category><category>love</category><category>story</category><category>poet</category><category>poems</category><category>cats</category><category>books</category><category>good-books</category><category>aesthete</category><category>poesy</category><category>mystic</category><category>history</category><category>life</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/03/01/paintings-5669427/#comments</comments></item><item><title>La-Ra</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/02/10/la-ra-5541385/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-02-10:/2009/02/10/la-ra-5541385/</guid><pubDate>Tue, 10 Feb 2009 02:16:30 +0100</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*on love&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
It was cold last night, and I felt lonely. It was time to go home. The way home took me only twenty minutes, but for some reason I decided to drop in the White Jibber Bar to have a cup of tea.  Now, I was sitting at a table and immersed in thoughts of my own, but suddenly I heard somebody call me. I turned round and there… dear me… a handsome man who I saw never before. And he was looking at me and smiling in the way that gave me the creeps. I tried to scan him in case he is a kind of a magician too… Oops… I couldn’t see a bio-field. Another moment, I showed him my nice bare teeth--thanks heaven, my fangs were not cut when I was a child--and I winked at him. What came next? I was going home being as though under a spell, and hearing some footsteps behind. Every time I turned round, nobody was there. Now, at home, coming to the kitchen I heard the call again. So pleasant it was. Ah, I ought to come up to his table. What an adventure it could be! If it went wrong, never mind, for really, nothing to lose.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/026/3104026_057b90c2e2_m.jpg" alt="boyskissing_tongues" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Don’t expect that these young things in the picture are girls. It’s two boys at emo party. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/028/3104028_ded8226080_m.jpg" alt="boyskissing_wall" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
Always In the Shadow of Young Boys in Flower&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*more on love&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
If I write a detective story some day, I’ll assume a pen-name ‘Melody Carr’. ‘Carr’ is a surname of the detective fiction writer John Dickson Carr, one of the greatest and one of my favorite. Perhaps some detective story lovers know that ‘Melody Carr’ is a name of one personage in a detective story by Adam Hall. I little know Adam Hall’s works, and his story Mat to the Red King left me cool, but I regard the female character in the story as most interesting. Melody Carr. An uncommonly beautiful and exceptionally attractive young woman. Her look emitted sex-appeal. But it was wrong impression. Seeing her for the first time, every man desired for her, but after sleeping with her once, men left her. Because she was absolutely frigid. For me this contradiction between her look and her nature seems very interesting, comprehensible and familiar. I never met women like she, but looking at my dilated eyes, some men feel something of the kind--a sex appeal--with me feeling nothing of the kind and wishing nothing of the kind at the moments. This misunderstanding annoyed me in my youth. For a long time I could not understand what was going on, what it all was about, and what the men wanted. Even if I was not busy, books and pens were always in my hands; I was always immersed in my own world too much to be interested in or even to notice male qualities of men I saw. What did the men wanted? I first understood this misunderstanding years back, when reading the novel Money by Emile Zola. There is one female character in the novel, a young good-looking French woman of noble birth. First seeing her, a man looks at her face, sees the stare of her large beautiful eyes and he feels a sex appeal, and it seems to him that she wants him at first glance, that she invites him to begin a love relationship or liaison or sex play. It is so every time, with every man, of any age. But the men don’t know that at the moment, when she stares at them with her large scintillating eyes, she thinks of gambling and sees cards and money in her mind’s eye. A game of cards, roulette, other games of chance and money are continually on her mind, because she has a strong addiction, even mania, and she is not able to think of anything else, even of love and sex. She is always in need of money--for gambling--and every time she first sees a man, she thinks of a possibility to get some money from him. If the man is rich. Staring at him, she thinks of his money, and not about him--of money and games. But it seemed to the men that she thought of them passionately--of them or at least of all males in general, which looked so flattering to them. And they could not resist to her “appeal”, and they offered their lover to her--oh those French men… Learning of the woman, I’ve understood all about me, and now I simply seek not to stare at a human’s face, averting my eyes… which in its turn looks suspicious again bringing about new misunderstandings. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/476/3220476_6c35354e21_s.jpg" alt="av_c" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*the end of my Facebookian adventures&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
As the reader knows, last year I was somewhat addicted to Facebook. This year, I almost forsake Facebook as a useless website for me. I only visit my FB page, two times a week, in order to confirm the next group of men as my FB friends. Is there any use? No, of course not, and yet… The website is so busy though.&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/01cat_l/3220477" title="01cat_l"&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/477/3220477_627ae8a5d7_m.jpg" alt="01cat_l" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;happy vd
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/02/10/la-ra-5541385/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>musings</category><category>cats</category><category>boys</category><category>prose</category><category>life</category><category>fiction</category><category>poetry</category><category>gods</category><category>enjoyment</category><category>poesy</category><category>beauty</category><category>oscar-wilde</category><category>books</category><category>creative-writing</category><category>history</category><category>pleasure</category><category>author</category><category>poems</category><category>literature</category><category>fun</category><category>essay</category><category>writer</category><category>la-lune-blanche</category><category>love</category><category>quotation</category><category>la-magie-blanche</category><category>aesthete</category><category>mystic</category><category>blog</category><category>gay</category><category>writing</category><category>pagan</category><category>novel</category><category>quote</category><category>story</category><category>book-about-men</category><category>blogging</category><category>mystique</category><category>art</category><category>good-books</category><category>poet</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/02/10/la-ra-5541385/#comments</comments></item><item><title>the little Love-god</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/01/26/the-little-love-god-5447876/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-01-26:/2009/01/26/the-little-love-god-5447876/</guid><pubDate>Mon, 26 Jan 2009 03:57:19 +0100</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Ancient Pages at Revue_Blanche&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;br&gt;
One illustration for 2 extracts from the book Beloved and God by Royston Lambert:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;“[…] Herodes Atticus,  the millionaire sophist of Athens, tutor to the young Caesar Marcus Aurelius and a Roman Consul, who had several eromenoi, proudly scattered busts around the Greek world of one of them, a mournful, unattractive youth called Polydeukes who had died young and whom the megalomaniac Atticus sought to commemorate in the way Hadrian had recently done Antinous.” &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;“The aged Herodes Atticus in a public paroxysm of despair at the loss of his eromenos, Polydeukes, commissioned games, inscriptions and sculptures on a lavish scale and then died, inconsolable, shortly afterwards.”&lt;br&gt;
&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/460/3175460_a9a78614fb_m.jpg" alt="313px-Apotheosis_of_Polydeukion%2C_detail" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I only permit myself to remark that personally I don’t find the boy is “unattractive”. Perhaps, inclined to musing and studying, he has a lovely body. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;more Ancient Pages:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/12/07/ancient-pages-5175343/"&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/12/07/ancient-pages-5175343/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/06/14/the-roses-of-paestum-4313335/"&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/06/14/the-roses-of-paestum-4313335/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
\http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/03/25/pagan-melody-3934828/___##2##___
&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/02/14/the_pollen_of_the_asphodel~3724836/"&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/02/14/the_pollen_of_the_asphodel~3724836/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2007/11/26/in_love_with_life~3352513/"&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2007/11/26/in_love_with_life~3352513/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/461/3175461_7ce01202d8_m.jpg" alt="bath" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*the devotion to something afar (reminiscence)&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
The reminiscence is connected with the yahoo group, in which I am currently a member, only indirectly, but this recollection is what I’d like to share with somebody long ago, because some questions arose, which may be of interest to those who like reading about weird things. The theme of the reminiscence is dreams.&lt;br&gt;
The yahoo group, dedicated to the New Temple of Antinous, which I left before I joined the Ekklesia Antinoou group, was the first yahoo group I knew and it was one of my first steps on the Net in 2004. Shortly soon after the day of my joining the group I had two odd night dreams, which I’d like to tell about in the hope of learning of an opinion from anybody who can interpret dreams. Those night dreams were so bright and remarkable that I still remember every detail, and still evokes some questions. The first dream was very short. I saw a white-skinned man wearing a light t-shirt and toga, worn properly, with perfect folds; the toga seemed to be made of a finest and softest wool, and I think that in my sleep I happened to see a true toga. The Man was young rather than old. He had a sandy hair, short and thick; he had thick glasses on; his face was round. Not tall; rather thin. I saw him never before. The colour of his dress was light but not white, rather soft-greenish-blue hued. And the space of the room was of the same colour. It must be said that the lighting of the picture was like that of a good Hollywood movie. The man held a huge cup with two handles in his hands on his breast level, and he as though offered it to me, looking up at me with a friendly enigmatic smile. Made of a white metal, the cup looked like a font/baptistery, and it was full of a liquid that changed quickly colours several times until it turned into what I prefer in real life, that is black coffee. The coffee in the cup glittered because of a light shining from somewhere above. The man smiled, and the huge heavy cup in his hands got closer and closer to my face. I can say nothing of the lower part of the man’s form because the cup prevented from seeing it. I did not hasten to taste the offered drink, and after several moments of my stillness, something happened. This dream finished in the way that made me doubt that the dream was mine; the end of the dream made me suspect that it was shown to me by somebody else or it was somebody else’s vision that transmitted to me in some extraordinary way--but I proceed. From somewhere, may be from behind my shoulder, suddenly, a small snow-white female briefs flew towards the man. The briefs were evidently thrown by somebody’s hand, but it was not my hand. At the moment, when the briefs hit the man’s face, the light was as though switched off. Darkness. Puzzling. Oppressive. And because of the oppressiveness I woke.&lt;br&gt;
The dream was not a nightmare, as the reader sees, and yet it was stunning, because I felt and I still feel certain that the dream was not mine, that is it was not a procreation of my consciousness, but it was as though shown to me in my sleep by someone, if only it this last were possible.&lt;br&gt;
The second dream was not a nightmare either. I saw a sunlit street of an old European town, which I did not recognize. A group of humans walked along the street, and this looked like a parade. The group was not large, only two dozen or so. Men and women of approximately the same age and stature. Men were wearing grey suits, white shirts and dark ties. The not numerous women were wearing long dresses that could not be visible, because every person of the group had on a long beautiful cope of snow-white lace with a simple yet beautiful floral ornament that in theory could be knitted with a crochet hook. Heads of the people were hooded. Thick books were in their hands. The people chanted reading the books aloud on the move. I could make out a face of one of the men with drooped eye. He was white-skinned; his black hair was rather long and wavy; he had a short beard; his chiseled features looked typical and yet unknown to me. The people walked and chanted without paying attention to all around. Or rather, I only could guess that they chanted, because I could not hear or understand the chanting; I could only see their lips moving and heads nodding slightly. Bending to their books, they looked concentrated or they wanted to look like this. It was obviously a demonstration. The streets of the town, where they walked, were sunlit. The ancient soft-sandy and soft terracotta buildings of the town were two or three storeyd no more; many windows and small balconies were flowers-adorned, and I discerned small red roses here and there. The weather looked fine. I remember, pavements were not asphalt. A timeless town? Now, the group of the cope-clad people stopped at a shady place. It was a verandah of a café or something of the kind, and there the group parted. The larger part remained standing with books in hands, and several men took quickly several chairs, sat down on the chairs face to their group--their heads were without hoods now, their copes were undone and their grey modern day suits could be more visible--and leaning back and crossing legs, they as though began listening to the chanting of their comrades. After this short divertissement, the group re-conjoined quickly, and the parade went on. And my dream came to an end.&lt;br&gt;
So simple was the dream, and at the same time it was so bright and unforgettable. It was rather beautiful than frightening. But it looked so alien to my real life that it made suppose an intervention of somebody’s consciousness. May be the dreams like this and the intervention is a usual thing for somebody, and for those who read this message in particular, but not for me, though I understand that any night dream is to be odd in virtue of its unexplored enigmatic nature. Now, if I am right, and the dream was shown to me by somebody, then one is tempted to suggest that there are those in the world, who can invade one’s subconsciousness so easily. Not everyone’s, but a subconsciousness of the one who has made a step out of one’s native system. (Scientologists?) Have anybody in our group experienced anything of the kind?  Perhaps, anybody recognizes the people, who I have described? &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;with kind regards,&lt;br&gt;
Lara&lt;br&gt;
P. S.&lt;br&gt;
Please read my new essay on one more theme of mystery:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/01/06/happy-wintering-5329703"&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/01/06/happy-wintering-5329703&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/01/26/the-little-love-god-5447876/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>poems</category><category>aesthete</category><category>blogging</category><category>boys</category><category>fun</category><category>life</category><category>fiction</category><category>mystic</category><category>mystique</category><category>poet</category><category>book-about-men</category><category>books</category><category>pagan</category><category>musings</category><category>poetry</category><category>gay</category><category>story</category><category>quotation</category><category>essay</category><category>art</category><category>gods</category><category>prose</category><category>good-books</category><category>history</category><category>novel</category><category>enjoyment</category><category>literature</category><category>quote</category><category>writing</category><category>antinous</category><category>la-lune-blanche</category><category>hadrian</category><category>pleasure</category><category>blog</category><category>french</category><category>author</category><category>creative-writing</category><category>cats</category><category>oscar-wilde</category><category>writer</category><category>love</category><category>beauty</category><category>la-magie-blanche</category><category>poesy</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/01/26/the-little-love-god-5447876/#comments</comments></item><item><title>enchantress_photo_gallery</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/01/19/enchantress-photo-gallery-5404264/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-01-19:/2009/01/19/enchantress-photo-gallery-5404264/</guid><pubDate>Mon, 19 Jan 2009 09:57:29 +0100</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/194/3156194_36c262e159_m.jpg" alt="collage_cow4cow" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;br&gt;
This is a little china cow or bull, the souvenir, which I bought for the new year.&lt;/p&gt;
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And again, enjoying life among things.&lt;/p&gt;
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Caravaggio’s chiaroscuro ?&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;My photos of choice are still-life, as I said last year, in this blog. The photos are only 4 in this Gallery, because I dislike the blog to be overloaded with pictures.&lt;/p&gt;
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My kitty Myla was 2 years old in December. I’ve figured up that she was born in December, but I don’t know of her birthday, therefore I reckon her to be born one day in December, and instead of a birth-day she has a birth-month at my place, and virtually, her birthday may be celebrated the month long.&lt;br&gt;
May 2009 be good to us all!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/01/19/enchantress-photo-gallery-5404264/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</description><category>pleasure</category><category>gods</category><category>mystique</category><category>la-magie-blanche</category><category>poems</category><category>oscar-wilde</category><category>blog</category><category>author</category><category>french</category><category>art</category><category>novel</category><category>blogging</category><category>la-lune-blanche</category><category>pagan</category><category>musings</category><category>literature</category><category>quote</category><category>mystic</category><category>poetry</category><category>enjoyment</category><category>essay</category><category>history</category><category>cats</category><category>writer</category><category>gay</category><category>beauty</category><category>love</category><category>creative-writing</category><category>poet</category><category>quotation</category><category>book-about-men</category><category>books</category><category>aesthete</category><category>good-books</category><category>prose</category><category>boys</category><category>fun</category><category>life</category><category>poesy</category><category>writing</category><category>fiction</category><category>story</category><comments>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/01/19/enchantress-photo-gallery-5404264/#comments</comments></item><item><title>happy wintering</title><link>http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2009/01/06/happy-wintering-5329703/</link><guid isPermaLink="false">tag:ohlala007.blog.co.uk,2009-01-06:/2009/01/06/happy-wintering-5329703/</guid><pubDate>Tue, 06 Jan 2009 03:34:01 +0100</pubDate><description>	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/029/3104029_be17cca55d_m.jpg" alt="boyskissing_winter" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I wish happy wintering to myself first of all, because it’s so cold now where I live. To you: Dream bolder! Everything will come true.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*New Year&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
Don’t be so fast, o life… A good long innings,&lt;br&gt;
return to me again and give me more.&lt;br&gt;
No geometric waltz of lines and fluid meanings.&lt;br&gt;
More facets in my hand and writings more.&lt;br&gt;
2009 © Lara Biuts &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;*One Winter Poem&lt;/strong&gt;*&lt;br&gt;
The winter holidays is a good time for mystery story telling. This essay is not one of the stories, although it tells about some mysterious things. Insights. Revelation. Clairvoyance. A prophet who foretells his own death. Poet as prophet. History of literature. This is a theme of the essay.&lt;br&gt;
It is known that some writers of past times, in their works, foretold some present day inventions and innovations that did not exist in their times and that are well-known at present. I am not about to discuss all or brightest examples of the writers’ insights; I am about to adduce only one, most controversial and less known, which may be regarded as my own discovery. But first I’d like to say about some poets of the realm which I know best of all.&lt;br&gt;
“Poet in Russia is more than a poet,” as one classic said. Murder of poets is an old good tradition in Russia. It is well-known that some Russian poets, in their works, foretold their own violent death. A most striking example is the poem The Dream by Mikhail Lermontov (1814-1841), who describes the hour of a day, the place in the Caucasus and himself lying dead, shot in his breast:&lt;br&gt;
“At steaming noon in a valley in Dagestan&lt;br&gt;
With a hole in my breast I lay motionless.&lt;br&gt;
The wound still smoked foully&lt;br&gt;
My blood flowed in a river of drops.&lt;br&gt;
I lay alone on the sand of the valley;&lt;br&gt;
The ledges of the crags crowded around,&lt;br&gt;
And the sun burned their yellow peaks&lt;br&gt;
And burned me, but I slept a dead sleep.” [translation is not mine.]&lt;br&gt;
Stunning.&lt;br&gt;
The poet of the Russian Silver Age Nikolay Gumilyov (1886-1921) foretold that his future death would be of a bullet, in his The Tram That Lost Its Way (the poem, which is considered one of the greatest poems of the 20th century), saying that “a worker has cast the lead bullet which will kill me”. And it was so indeed. The poet died in a courtyard of Cheka (the Bolshevik security service), being executed for participation in monarchist conspiracy. &lt;em&gt;(One legend of his death says that at the ceremony of the upcoming shooting down, one literate Bolshevik commissar was present and he recognized Gumilyov among the convinced, formed a rank. The commissar stopped the executors and turned to Gumilyov: “Poet Gumilyov! Come forth!” Without leaving the rank, the poet said in reply: “Here is not a poet Gumilyov. Here is an army officer Gumilyov.” Thus, he was killed among other army officers.)&lt;/em&gt; By the way, the poem The Tram That Lost Its Way first occurred to Gumilyov one early morning, on the way home, to his apartment in St Petersburg, where he walked after a nightlong playing cards at his friend’s.&lt;br&gt;
As some biographers of one more poet of Silver Age Marina Tsvetayeva (1892–1941) say, in her poem, which I can’t cite in this essay right now, she foretold her death of a halter. And it was so indeed, with her suicide looking like a poor imitation by security service.&lt;br&gt;
In the 20th century, among Russian researchers and readers, the poet Alexander Pushkin (1799-1837) is a cult figure, acknowledged as an undoubted prophet. He never foretold a way that he would die, but in his young age, he heard that mystic warning from a gipsy fortuneteller, who told him to beware of a tall blond army officer. And the gipsy proved to be right. With his vivid temperament and worldly nature, a freethinker, Pushkin is a true man of genius in his writings, and his genius is akin Mozart’s. Pushkin (who died shot in his stomach) has several beautiful poems, dedicated to a long way along a snow-clad road in winter. One of the poems, most impressive is entitled Devils.&lt;br&gt;
A long way through the steppe at night. A blizzard. And a vision of devils. What devils do the travelers see and hear overhead? Note: overhead, some spirits flying high in the night sky, in other words, in the ether. It’s the snow and sounds of the blizzard, on the face of it. Yes, and yet it’s something more. Every time I reread the poem, I feel more and more certain that in his vision of the blizzard, like in a prophetic dream, the author as though foresees the modern day wireless means of communication, radio, telephone and so forth, whose realm is nothing other but the ether, and whose noise would seem terrific to a 19th century man and even to some of us, if only we could hear all the radio and phone lines at once like it happens at times, for example, when we happen to listen to radio short waves. The vision in the poem is that of the future inventions, which might look like supernatural as evil spirits in the author’s time, and which was seen through the alembic of his fancy. “What a crowd! Where are they carried?” asks the author, and I’d like to know it along with him. Midsummer and a frosty winter are most weird periods of a year, when it is possible to see and foresee much. The sounds of the wireless means of communication and the essences of humans who serve and use them (advertizing, maybe), though I am not sure concerning the Internet system, because personally I don’t listen to music on the Net, therefore I can’t judge of it--all this, and maybe something else, much more supernatural. At least, I feel like this, when reading the text in Russian. Here is the text in English [translation is not mine]: &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Devils&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Storm-clouds hurtle, storm-clouds hover;&lt;br&gt;
Flying snow is set alight&lt;br&gt;
By the moon whose form they cover;&lt;br&gt;
Blurred the heavens, blurred the night.&lt;br&gt;
On and on our coach advances,&lt;br&gt;
Little bell goes din-din-din...&lt;br&gt;
Round are vast, unknown expanses;&lt;br&gt;
Terror, terror is within.&lt;br&gt;
--Faster, coachman! "Can't, sir, sorry:&lt;br&gt;
Horses, sir, are nearly dead.&lt;br&gt;
I am blinded, all is blurry,&lt;br&gt;
All snowed up; can't see ahead.&lt;br&gt;
Sir, I tell you on the level:&lt;br&gt;
We have strayed, we've lost the trail.&lt;br&gt;
What can WE do, when a devil&lt;br&gt;
Drives us, whirls us round the vale?&lt;br&gt;
"There, look, there he's playing, jolly!&lt;br&gt;
Huffing, puffing in my course;&lt;br&gt;
There, you see, into the gully&lt;br&gt;
Pushing the hysteric horse;&lt;br&gt;
Now in front of me his figure&lt;br&gt;
Looms up as a queer mile-mark--&lt;br&gt;
Coming closer, growing bigger,&lt;br&gt;
Sparking, melting in the dark."&lt;br&gt;
Storm-clouds hurtle, storm-clouds hover;&lt;br&gt;
Flying snow is set alight&lt;br&gt;
By the moon whose form they cover;&lt;br&gt;
Blurred the heavens, blurred the night.&lt;br&gt;
We can't whirl so any longer!&lt;br&gt;
Suddenly, the bell has ceased,&lt;br&gt;
Horses halted... --Hey, what's wrong there?&lt;br&gt;
"Who can tell!--a stump? a beast?.."&lt;br&gt;
Blizzard's raging, blizzard's crying,&lt;br&gt;
Horses panting, seized by fear;&lt;br&gt;
Far away his shape is flying;&lt;br&gt;
Still in haze the eyeballs glare;&lt;br&gt;
Horses pull us back in motion,&lt;br&gt;
Little bell goes din-din-din...&lt;br&gt;
I behold a strange commotion:&lt;br&gt;
Evil spirits gather in--&lt;br&gt;
Sundry, ugly devils, whirling&lt;br&gt;
In the moonlight's milky haze:&lt;br&gt;
Swaying, flittering and swirling&lt;br&gt;
Like the leaves in autumn days...&lt;br&gt;
What a crowd! Where are they carried?&lt;br&gt;
What's the plaintive song I hear?&lt;br&gt;
Is a goblin being buried,&lt;br&gt;
Or a sorceress married there?&lt;br&gt;
Storm-clouds hurtle, storm-clouds hover;&lt;br&gt;
Flying snow is set alight&lt;br&gt;
By the moon whose form they cover;&lt;br&gt;
Blurred the heavens, blurred the night.&lt;br&gt;
Swarms of devils come to rally,&lt;br&gt;
Hurtle in the boundless height;&lt;br&gt;
Howling fills the whitening valley,&lt;br&gt;
Plaintive screeching rends my heart...&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;“Sundry, ugly devils, whirling”--this line can be translated closer to the original text as “oh so endless; oh so ugly”. “Ugly” because “they” or rather “it” is alien therefore frightening. “Endless” because “it” acts in the endless ether.&lt;br&gt;
Any thoughts?&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;sincerely yours&lt;br&gt;
Lara Biuts&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;&lt;img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/504/3126504_64e8cb42a2_s.jpg" alt="bull_2009" vspace="5" hspace="5"&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;P.S.&lt;br&gt;
one more essay:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/12/10/essay-5197970."&gt;http://ohlala007.blog.co.uk/2008/12/10/essay-5197970.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
my book:&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB.htm"&gt;http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB.htm&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB2.htm"&gt;http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB2.htm&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;
&lt;a href="http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB3.htm"&gt;http://www.turnermaxwellbooks.com/LLB3.htm&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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